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Well addiction what can I say...I am who I am because of you. 

Who am I now? I am a post-op WLS patient. I am 70 lbs lighter and getting smaller everyday. I am still an addict.

Who was I? I was someone who couldn't pass a fast food joint without stopping for a burger, nuggets, something...I ate poorly in private and well in public. I appeared to have great willpower when at parties and gatherings. Snacking only on veggies and drinking water and diet sodas. But well I ate. Not because I was sad, bored, or lonely but because it was there. I am ashamed of my behavior and that I opened that life to only one person...my young son.

What am I doing to change this? I don't know...the urge is there everyday I struggle with it. I really want a breakfast burrito, Arby's potato wedges and roastbeef sandwich. I would love a chicken nugget...I keep telling myself I can't, I will get sick...but the day will come when I can try it...maybe I won't get sick...what then...

Will I have the will to say no? Will I remember what it was like to be over 300 lbs and feel that every eye was looking at the fat girl. Will I remember not being able to use the stairs, wear heals, or walk a block without total exhaustion? I sure hope so! But if I don't remember I know that I have friends and family there to support and remind me...

I am a addict and I will always be one...but I will not be fat ever again!

Well this last month was hard but here I am now down nearly 70 lbs!!! Amazing!!!

I found out that for the past month I have been suffering with a stricture. This made eating nearly non-exsistant. I didn't think much of it figured it was just me being picky or something...when one weekend came and went and I could barely keep down water I called the dr's and low and behold stricture! 

Well I got it fixed and you know what? I am so happy I can eat...I didn't think I missed it but I did. I am a little afraid of some foods such as eggs that gave me such a hard time before but I guess I need to get over that.

I had a wow moment when I realized I went from a size 30/32 shirt to a 22/24 shirt in just 2 months!!! I can't wait to see what my new pants size is when I get out to shop...

Anyway here is to another month gone...

Well one month out, I am feeling well and have lost nearly 40 lbs. I am happy that I had the surgery and look forward to a life full of love and laughter. 

My motivation you may ask: My son, my husband, and my life. I want to play at the park with my son, I want to be an attractive and fit wife for my husband and most of all I want to live a long and healthy life. To grow old and see my grandchildren. 

Feel free to post your motivations!