NSowah
Well, hello everyone!
If you're reading this, I've finally faced reality.I'M OVER WEIGHT! For years I'd convince myself ,"I'm thick, or pleasantly plump," but the truth was I am over weight. I thought about getting the surgery in 2006. I researched it...slightly and forgot about it. I felt I could lose weight on my own if Iwanted. I'd restrict my food intake for about two weeks YES TWO WHOLE WEEEKS then reality would settle back in. If was to look weight and to keep it off..I needed to figure a nother way besides the diets I've tried.
My largest weight 408lbs OMG! This was very devastating to me. I have grown accustom to hiding my emotions.When you're over weight alot of things will test or bothers you emotionally. Some people say you're too sensitive. If a person could go 1 month or even a week in the life and shoes of someone over weight...then we'll see whose sensitive.I dealt with braking chairs, not being about to fit in chairs..not being able to fit in some cars. Not able to fly because I'd have to purchase another ticket. I lived my life uncomfortably because I was over weight. I've dealt with the stares from people while shopping or in the mall...as If I'm a freak or something. I was teased growning up.I've always had problem with my weight. It didn't really effect my social life. Although I was hurting inside. I never let anyone see that. I kept it hidden and lied to myself through out life..sayin I was okay and I knew I wasn't. I dealt with my step dad putting me on every diet possible at 12years old. He'd tell my I was gonna grown up and be so fat and no one loves a fat person. I can remember once my siblings and I had finished dinner...and my stepdad was making milkshakes. I ran in the kitchen with my brothers and I was told,' Why are you in here you're not getting any ..you need to say away from the kitchen as it is...so you don't need any ice cream." I never understood. I ate the same food if not less than what my brothers ate..yet I was thicker. *ANYWAY I'm rambling* I cried to my husband...I never told him my exact weight because I was soooo embarassed. I was over weight when my husband met me, and over weight when he married me. So, why would a nu,ber change that. Well, anyway..I cried my husband would say,"Hunny you are sooo beautiful, your not fat..you're thick and I like you the way you are." The problem is I didn't like myself. I stopped shopping because its too expensive and I was more embarassed. I'd go to lane Bryant and spend $200-$400 each time. I hated it. Most of my friends could spend 3xs less than that and have more clothes.
Also I went with my aunt to the state fair...My first time ever..'I'm a city girl!" There was a small roller coaster...I walked up and struggled and climbed in the ride...the attendant kept saying you can't fit. I felt I would prove him wrong. I got in the ride and had a blast then it took my 5mins to climb out. I couldn't fit on the rest of the rides so I just stuck to the games and the food.
My grandmother in her mid 60's is morbidly obese, as diabetes, on dialysis and can barely walk. I didn't want that to be my fate. I enjoyed junk food, but not enough to lose my life for it.SOOOOOO
I decided to make a change. A co-worker of mine had the bypass and was telling all about the bariatric procedures, her surgeon etc. My husband and I went to the seminar and from 5/22/2008 I made the decision to take controll of my health. I got approved throught my insurance 8/08/2008 and had the surgery 8/25/2008.
