nyckitty
It's done!
Mar 03, 2008
I can't believe I've actually went through with it. Wednesday will be officially 1 week out. But my oh my, what a week it has been. Lets start with the day of surgery. We got to the hospital about 8am. Surgery was scheduled at 9. I went into the pre-admissions room, checked in, set up, changed into the gown and all that and then waited. (:15 came and i was still waiting. Turns out there was an emergency and they needed the OR that i was scheduled for, so i had to wait. I was more calm than i thought i would have been. I eventually went in somewhere between 11:30 and 12:00. I went into the OR, they laid me on the table, and thats where the pain started. They have a very hard time finding my veins, so in order to get the IV in, they unfortunately stuck me 21 times. Finally they got it, and the next thing I heard was, "ok, we're going to start, goodnight.". After that, next thing I knew I was waking up in the recovery room in lots of pain and feeling as if a train had gone through my mouth. I was in and out of sleep for most of the rest of the day. But then I forced myself to get up and start walking around. It hurt and was uncomfortable at first, but the more I walked, the better it was. The next day, I had to go for the Upper GI series test. I did the test. It went well. I came back up to my room, and the nurse asked me what was that all over my skin..i had no idea what she was talking about. Turns out, I had broken into a rash because the contrast they gave me for the test contained the same proteins that are in shellfish, which i am allergic to. They gave me benedryl and thank god the rash went away in a couple of hours. Unfortunately because benedrl counteracts with morphine, that meant no more painkiller...
. but, i toughed it out. They let me go home that day, and i started my liquids.Saturday however was really hard for me. My boyfriend came over. He has been really supportive and really sweet throughout this whole process. I love him so much! He asked if i would mind if he had something to eat because he had been working until late the night before. Not wanting to make him feel guilty, i said no. Boy was that a mistake. I didn't say anything to him, but i just got so upset. I cried all night, regretting what i had done. My whole life revolved around food. I love to cook, love to bake, even had a catreing business going at one time, and it all just hit me that life was about to change. Before the surgery i knew everything that comes with the territory, but somehow i had convinced myself that it would never happen to me. I wouldn't get so upset over food. But i sure as hell was. It was really bad. The next morning I decided to go on the scale. To my surprise, I was down 8lbs! I was so excited, i started to look at things differently. I don't need to LIVE TO EAT, i neeed to EAT TO LIVE. so i started pureeing like mad, and today, i'm just so excited about this. I'm glad i did this. it was the best choice, and i know its going to be only beneficial for me. i'm going to start walking on the treadmill today. i can't wait to actually start going to the gym, and do more effective exercise. i am so psyched to make this work now!!
I also want to thank all of you for your kind words, and support. They were greatly appreciated, and i know they are going to help me succeed. Much love to u all!! I will update again soon!
one more day
Feb 24, 2008
oh my god. surgery is the day after tomorrow.
I am so....wow I don't even know how to describe it. It feels like forever since I've started this whole process and now it's here. It's finally here. YAY!! 
I've only told a few people. Only people who I KNOW I can trust, and they have been very supportive. Although, there has been the comment or two.."are u sure u want to do this?", or "there are other ways.." but the truth is, yes! Yes i want to do this and yes there are other ways, but not for me! I am so excited and I absolutely cannot wait to become a person that I've dreamed of practically all my life. I'll try to post more tomorrow, but if not, wish me luck!! 
one week
Feb 19, 2008
Well this is my first blog. I joined this website before I had gotten my surgery date. Now I have it and I am so excited!!! Not too many people can understand this sort of excitement though. Its like finally being given a second chance. I’ve been a “big girl” practically all my life… years of personal torment, regret, ridicule, and such, and not to mention all the major health risks that go along with. I’m already at the top of the risk factors because of my condition. Those of you who are or were once in my shoes know EXACTLY what I’m talking about. I’m also tired of having to go straight to the “Plus Size” section of the store. Everything else in the stores has been unknown to me. Now I have a chance for that all to change. My surgery is one week. I’m going to try to update as much as possible (for those of you who are interested) before and especially after the surgery. I’ve read so many success stories on OH and now I can’t wait to be my own. I’m so excited and nervous and happy and scared and everything all at the same time!! 
But I wouldn’t change my mind about everything if you paid me. I’m ready!! 
