Hi Pam, Welcome to AMOS, "the living soap opera"!! You will feel better as time goes on and you talk to more people, read and research more. That's not to say you won't freak out now and then. I almost backed out once, just got very scared and wondered why I would possibly let someone cut me open and re-do my insides!! So I made a pact with myself: I would proceed as if I was NOT having the surgery and if I could prove to myself I could lose weight, get in shape and change my lifestyle just fine without WLS, I would cancel the surgery. I tried so hard for 3 weeks and got so depressed trying that I finally accepted the truth....I NEED THIS SURGERY !!!! If I knew how to underline the word NEED, and highlight it, I would!!! I feel guilty about lack of willpower too but facts IS facts...I don't have the will power. So don't be too hard on yourself, it's a common thing. We're going to get the help we NEED to save our lives, get healthy and live a quality life. We just want to be healthy, happy and LIVE. Be kind to yourself and I wish you well on this roller coaster ride we're on! Carol Percel