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So I just realized today that I am no longer morbidly obese. I'm just obese. How funny... I never thought it would feel this good to be obese. haha. In other news I'm struggling with getting in my protein. I really need to work on that. I'm gonna start workng out in my garage once my dad and I clean it. I really want to be able to run a mile non stop. It's my goal. I would also love to get to 200 lb by new years. That would be freaking amazing, but I don't think that is likely. I'll try though. That's all I have for now.

It's been almost 3 weeks since surgery. I've lost 30 lbs already, which is way awsome. So, since I started the whole process, I've lost 50 lbs. It's kinda noticeable. I'm currently wearing size 16 shorts. My shirts are a bit big on me. I put on a size 2 shirt from Torrid and it fit. So, I'm down 2-3 pant sizes and 1 shirt size. I had my one month lab work done this morning. The results are probably gonna suck because I've been really bad about taking my vitamins and getting in all my protein. I'm trying to get better at it though. The protein makes me nauseous but I'm trying to get over that. My pouch has been really angry at me lately. I feel really bloated really fast and it hurts. I can only drink any thing that is really warm or really cold. If it's room temp, I feel full immediately and can't drink for half an hour. I'm trying though. I ate too much once so far and it hurt so bad. I threw up and that was the weirdest experience ever. It was like a really big loogie. lol. I also tried some chocolate. (I know I'm bad. If I was perfect I wouldn't have needed the surgery.) I didn't dump on it. I was really shocked. I was a little mad last week because I hadn't lost a pound. I lost 20 lbs the first week. I lost another 5 but stalled for almost a week. I finally started losing again, and have lost 5 more. thats about 21% of the weight I want to lose. I'm really happy with it. But I have to go now. Just wanted to make a quick update. Bye!

Today wasn't too bad.  I only got in one protein shake today. I know I need to get at least two, but it made me nauseous and killed my appetite for the rest of the day. I only got really hungry at around 8 in which I had soup (without all the solid food of course). It sucked. I really wanted a cigarette today. I'm not a big smoker. I used to smoke socially but I've stopped for obvious reasons but it was really nagging me today which never happens. (probably because I couldn't eat so my mind is rebelling against me and trying to sabotage me as usual. ugh) Anyway. This is gonna be a long two weeks. I can feel the worst has yet to come, but I guess it has to get worse before it gets better. I'm trying to keep busy and try to surround myself with more wls stuff so I can stay excited. It is kinda getting in the way of school though. :/ My pre op appointment is on Monday though. I'm really excited. 13 more days until I start my new life. I can't wait.

So I didn't mention yesterday that I'm on a liver shrinking pre-op diet. It has two phases. The first phase, which I am on now, consists of only eating meat and vegetables. That is it. I can't have dairy, bread, surgery things, fatty things, or anything else- just meat and vegetables. I usually eat a lot of that. Every night for dinner I have a meat, a veggie, and something else (rice or bread for example. The two days I've been on it, my mom decides to make things I can't have. They had pizza yesterday and fish sticks and tater tots today. In her defense yesterday she didn't know. But tonight she said she didn't feel like cooking and by the time she told me what was for dinner, it was too late for me to unfreeze something and cook it for myself. We haven't gone out and bought anything for me yet so my house is empty of things that I can make easily. So today I had a burger without a bun, a half sandwich without bread, and a salad from Denny's. I got in all my water for the day, which I almost always do. I haven't started my supplements yet but I have to wait til this weekend to get it.  I don't drink soda or coffee anymore anyway, but I can't have any of that either. I can't take any NSAIDs from now on until forever. That's really crazy to think about.... but anyway. This part of the diet I have to be on until two weeks before my surgery when I start phase 2. This part is to really shrink my liver. I can only have liquids. So... I'm probably gonna get grouchy in those two weeks cuz I get kinda bitchy when I'm hungry. Especially because I'm gonna be so stressed from school. It'll be worth it though. I just need to make sure I stick to my diet and do what I'm supposed to do.