Kathy W.

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There is someone that is on the CT boards that recently posted and mentioned that he is frustrated on his weight loss. I gave him a pro-op's perspective of it. I am making this post so that I can find it, and can remember my goals and feelings from pre-op when I get frustrated.

1) I will be greatful for whatever weight loss I am able to acheive. I will NOT complain if I only make it to 200. 

2) I will only splurge on ONE pair of Baby Phat jeans and ONE shirt. I love the cat. What can I say? My point is this... I will NOT become obsessed with clothes once I become healthy since I don't care now whay should I care then?

3) I will continue to excercise after I get approved. I love doing it and can't wait to get back to the gym. (Stupid anemia.)

4) I will NOT get overly frustrated with the DH when he is being stubborn about what I need after surgery.

5) Fly and not have to get an extender.

6) Go to Six Flags and ride whatever I want and not have to worry about if I will be too big to fit.

7) Get off my blood pressure (2), cholesterol, diabetis, and not HAVE to take birth control for PCOS. I can live if I don't get off the thyroid, migraine and anti-depressant meds.

8) Have my boobs be bigger than my tummy. (ok so that will require me to be dressed since the girls are gonna deflate.)

9) Get rid of that stupid CPAP machine.

Ok I feel really embarrassed now since I was all look at my ticker and you can't see them on the state boards. Anyway, the story of having to show off the ticker and the reason I have one. As the people on the CT board know I have a sh (stupid hubby) instead of a dh since he doen't want me to have surgery . Oh and he doesn't want me to join the gym either. Back in August I believe I went to a doctor that had a digital scale and I finally got a weight. It was 387. I was DEVISTATED! I had no clue I was that big. I started thinking about WLS surgery then. I lost about 5 pounds by Oct. And I just went in to see the Dr. last week and I am down another 10 pounds. So I am down a total of 15 pounds. I am excited since I usually don't lose weight. Imma try to put the ticker on here. I am so lame.

I am just frustrated right now. I want to go home to have my surgery so that I can have my family with me instead of my husbands family. I love my husband but in this situation I want my family not his surrounding me. I am confused. I am scared to have it here since I am not sure I can get the help I would need post-op here. I KNOW I can get it at home. I need to get on the ball to get this going to get things in order but I just can't if it has to be done here. I work for a place that gives me paid time off. I'm not talking a percentage but 100% of my base pay. I don't want to leave my husband for the time I would be in Ohio but I just can't face it here. I am too scared. I hate this feeling.