Joan B.
As a child I never was really faced with weight issues. Once I hit puberty, I have been gaining weight ever since. Throughout high school I tried my hardest to not gain weight by what many teenagers do - skipping meals. As I entered college I was at a reasonable weight - around 135 lbs. I met my husband and we had two wonderful children. After the children were born, I seem to consistently put on the weight over the years. I have been having digestive problems for a couple years now. I had surgery in August 2007 to fix a blockage in my small intestine. Since the surgery I have been putting weight on even more easily now. I have reached the highest I have ever weighed so far. I do not like my appearance and have various medical problems which presumably are due to being obese. I am always tired and have very little energy just to do household chores and take care of my kids. I need to be around for my special needs daughter who will more than likely need my care for a lifetime.
A majority of the time, what comes with being overweight, comes depression because of low self esteem and many other factors. I have been on depression medication for many years now and have not yet found a natural way of coping. I therefore tend to eat emotionally and even binge when I am feeling really down. It's not uncommon to find me eating a whole candy bar just to make myself feel better emotionally.
I have tried different diets and have failed at all of them. The number one reason why - dedication. I always find myself cheating on the diet. I find it so hard to stick to a diet and mainly because I'm always hungry or that I just plain don't like the foods I'm supposed to eat.
With that said, I hope that someday I will be able to find acceptance of my appearance, higher self esteem and most importantly - improved health.
