raayven
I have been struggling with weight since I was very young, probably 7. I remember kids making fun of me but who doesn't? *sigh* I was 215 when I got pregnant in 1994 and I gained 50lbs then subsequently lost it after I started breast feeding. I steadily have gained weight since then and now topped the scales at 355 within the last year. I have had high blood pressure and water retention problems for 8 or so years. Tests I took in August found I am pre diabetic and pre high cholesteral. I have been seeing a nutritionist for 5 months and really didnt start loosing alot until November 07.
I guess alot having to do with that was the loss of my boyfriend of 7 years on July 25th, 2007. His name was Lyle and he weighed 688lbs. 600 was heart and 88 was stubborness! I and his sisters had talked to him many times about getting the surgery *gastric* because his health was going too. That stubborness kicked in even though many of our friends had gotten it and even 1 of his sisters! He went into the hospital at 2pm and died at 2am of Pulmonary Embolism and Morbid Obesity. The doctor's said I couldn't have done anything even if I would have brought him in earlier. I love and miss him so much but I made a vow that day that my family wouldn't be at my bedside some day watching me die because I was obese. I finally sat down and told myself I am doing this for him, for myself and my son and for those out there who don't think they can change. It has to start with yourself before you can change.
I work 2 jobs and my friend who works with me got me more interested in the Lap Band which she has gotten. Right now I am excited and hopefull and taking each day one at a time.
*smiles*
Raayven
