reddy4myturn
My story is like many others...I've pretty much always been the happy, bubbly, "cute" one that everyone loves but says "oh you'd be so pretty if you could just lose the weight" As if it is "just" that easy...
I've tried all the healthy stuff...weight watchers, doctor monitored, etc to alternative stuff like ear stapling and hypnotism to the radical stuff like the "mayo clinic diet" and the atkins... and here I am bigger than ever. I am an emotional eater and unfortunately have had a lot of stress in my life. Everyone says I handle it well but come on, take a look at me and it's obvious how I handle any stress, dissappointments, even happy moments.
I am married to the man who says he loves me regardless of my size and up to this point he's proven that. We've dated since I was only 14 and wearing a size 12 pants and a size small shirt to my current sizes (28 pants and 3x shirts). We have 3 daughters-2 teenagers (can you say stress? 
) in addition to our 7 year old that has had some major health issues within the last 2+ years.
Anyway, I know why I'm big, now I just wanna lose it and get on with my life! People who say I'm strong are dead-on right, I've been carrying around a LOT! My BMI is 55 and I am considered super morbidly obese. I knew I had a big bootie, heck I had a big bootie back when I was wearing size 12 pants; my waist was only an 8. I'm too scared to have the biggie surgery but I have researched and hesitated for years and at last, I've made all the appts, seen the nutritionist, the pscyh and had all my labs, GI, etc done. I just have to wait for the 2nd and final approval from insurance and then we set a date. I can't wait. I am in the process of trying to drink more water and get off the Diet Coke. I am also "learning" to chew, walk more, change my portions and choices and do it all with a big smile!!
