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i started chemo on the 19 of august. i will have my second treatment september ninth.  the first week was hell, had a hard time eating. my intestines was tore up. my hair is falling out. easy to take care of as i had it shaved.  it is what it is. i am taking r-chop chemo. they say if you can rate chemo from a one to ten it is a seven.  i am not liking it but so far doable.  makes me weak mostly.  whoever thought i would be going through this.  i am still upset with dr. o nurse ann.  but this too shall pass. my son is home this month we have spent some time together which is nice. he bought me a new computer, guess he thought i needed it. and it is nice. but i use the old one mostly.  eating on chemo with the bypass is a challenge expecially the first week.  but so far i have managed. we will see as time goes on.  well guess that is all i have to say.

insumption   with mass           http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/medical/IM00711 

  They tell me this is not related to the rny surgery that i have.   the surgeon says the mass caused the insumption . he removed the mass when he repaired the colon.  said he took out about five inches of my colon.

but the test on the mass came back as lymphnoma which is cancer.  they say it is a curable cancer, so i am relying on that for now.  My life has been turned up side down at this point, I am still weak and sickly.  the cancer dr. says i need to take chemo but wants to wait until my surgery heals..  I am to weak to go back to work. and then when i get my strength back i will have to do chemo.. this sucks. I dont want to be made sick by chemo.  lord be with my family..

Well i was warned but didnt listen... after three years of struggling with drinking. i finally commited myself into a rehab. am doing good so far with not drinking.. i now go to aa meetings.. working the steps of aa.. who would imagine after all i have been trhough in my life.. so far warning to everyone... do not take the first drink.... I am doing well though, feel good about myself.. high of god and life.. feeling a peace about me... enjoying my family... I have to be careful about eating at this point though... i can eat just aaobut anything in small amounts and quite often.. so i know it will be easy to gain back.. thought i would post this as  a warning to anyone who thinks they can drink... good luck to all

• Protein contains 4 calories per gram
• Carbohydrates contain 4 calories per gram
• Fat contains 9 calories per gram

As you see, fat contains more than twice the calories of protein and carbohydrates.

Most foods contain a mixture of protein, carbs and fat.

Calories from fat are more easily stored as fat, than are calories from carbohydrates.



I forgot exactly how many calories was in each....so i had to look it up... thought I would post it here

It has been awhile but i am still here.. and I am still losing.. I am down to 161... i have been a slow loser but that is ok.. I am now in a ten jean.... still dealing with the mind thing... I still see fat.

I have 11 more lbs and will be where the dr. thought i would be... dont know if he wants me to lose more after that are not. guess we will see when i have my checkup in february... 

I would like to get around 130... we will see... but i also am happy where i am...

Well I am keeping busy working.... and I love the freedom it has given me back.... hard to beleive I am the same person I was ten yrs ago. even five yrs ago.  I am in better shape then when I was a teenager and really loving it. yeah I have the aches and pains of an older person, but the mobility of a teenager.... well to a point.. but I am happy.  Plus I lost another 20 lbs in the last year... I think that is good for 3 yrs out.... I want to lose another 20 so I am still trying...

bob and I are getting along somewhat better which is good... well at least we are not fighting all the time. I think the extra money for me working helps. And Bob has adjusted I guess what I am saying is that this changes you mentally.. Bob is a over bearing husband,  makes all the decision, no you cant do that. no we aint doing that. Well I have learned I want things and to do things and have learned to speak up... took him awhile to adjust to that but he is trying and I refuse to fight with him no more. 

Had a little trouble with tranfer addiction for awhile. but I beleive I got that under control. Had to make the decision that I didnt want to become a drunk, so stopped drinking period.  I dont need to lose this independence I have worked so hard to get back by losing drivers license or hurting someone innocent. Plus my kids need me.

My son is going to Iraq .... that is scary..... god wont give me no more then I can handle, right....

Okay  so  it  has  been  awhile.  I  have  been  working.  Just  part  time  housekeeping,  but  i  like  it.  Keeps  me  busy  and  doesnt  affect  my  disability.

  As  for  me  and  Bob  same  old   same  old.    I  should  leave  but  dont  have  the  cumption  start  over. Maybe  someday...

Anyway  Travis  is  still  in  the  military. . I  think  he  likes  it  doesnt  really say.  I  dont  here  from  him  much.  I  am  hoping  to  get  to  go  see  him  soon.  we  will  see.   Sasha  is  still  working  on  graduation.  She  didnt  do  well  last  semester  so  she  has  to  take  a  couple  classes  this  fall.  But  AIl  I  can   say   is  that  for  one  thing  os that  my  kids  they  are  presistant.  She  is  going  back  to  pick  up  the  few  credits  she  needs  and  tells  me  she  is  going  to  nursing  school.  We  will  see.

As  for  my  weight.  I  lost  another  ten  pds  when  I  started  this  job.  Was  hoping  it  would  get  me  in  the  running  of  losing  this  last  forty  pds  but  so  far  I  seem  to  have  settled  with  losing  ten.  I  am  still   happier  and  a  lot  more  mobile.  So  that  is  worth  it  all.  It  wasnt  easy  like  most  people  think.  And  it  is  hard  not  to  gain  back...  But  my  independence  and  being  mobile  is  so  worth  it.  Would  I  do  it  again....  hell  yes!!!!  in  a  heartbeat.

Good  luck  to  everyone  that  goes  through  this  journey....      

Any  Hi  to  everyone....  hugs....  Stay  safe  and  love  yourself....

Well I seem to stay busier nowadays that is one good think about the life change. Still working on trying to find a job. no luck so far.

The pain in my legs is still really undetermined. Restless leg syndrome, nerupathy, or a vitamin 12 defiency.

I seemed to have developed a vitamin b defienciey so now I am taking the shots instead of the pills.

other then that everything is about the same.  Bob and I fight one week then dont hardly speak the next to try to avoid fighting with one another.

Trav is doing well in the army.   Sasha will graduate this yr. fI dont know what her plans are.

Well I am trying to figure this out. My pcp wants me to try a hypoglycemic diet and I am having trouble understanding some  of it. It seems as if the further out I get the worse some of this gets. It is so hard to eat healthy and this surgery makes you do it and if you dont know how you have to learn it. my blood sugars have been dropping daily down into the fifties and probable lower.. so I am goingt o post some stuff here that I hope will help me get this. It is a lot like doing homework.

http://www.hsph.harvard.edu/nutritionsource/carbohydrates.html


http://www.glycemicindex.com/

How to Switch to a Low GI Diet

The basic technique for eating the low GI way is simply a "this for that" approach - ie, swapping high GI carbs for low GI carbs. You don't need to count numbers or do any sort of mental arithmetic to make sure you are eating a healthy, low GI diet.

• Use breakfast cereals based on oats, barley and bran
• Use breads with wholegrains, stone-ground flour, sour dough
• Reduce the amount of potatoes you eat
• Enjoy all other types of fruit and vegetables
• Use Basmati or Doongara rice
• Enjoy pasta, noodles, quinoa
• Eat plenty of salad vegetables with a vinaigrette dress

Well the job didnt work out. I dont want to go into details right now. I am not real happy about it. kinda depressed...

But I do have another job on the string so we will see soon...