ROBIN K.
You have got to be KIDDING ME!?!?!
Nov 03, 2010
As it turns out.. I do not have bronchitis..(umm yea?).. I am a 40 year old woman who is somewhat of a hermit... Somehow I get whooping cough!!! How in the world?!?! So... I have been sick since the BEGINNING OF SEPTEMBER!!! My doc says that it lasts somewhere between 3 to 6 months.. SAY WHAT?? MONTHS!?!?!?!?!?! DID I HEAR YOU CORRECTLY????
I cannot get my spinal proceedures, too much of a risk of getting meningitis. SIGH! I'm getting discouraged. I cannot exercise what-so-ever! The thought of making my respitory work harder than it already is makes me want to scream! I received a Thank You letter
for my support from the Poise Pad company the other day. LOL
My weight is at a stand still and everyone around me in my OH world is at around 75 lbs lost or more.. and I am still at 32lbs.
I KNOW I KNOW... Im not supposed to compare. I have just been wallowing in my pity party for the past month. It's time I get out of this mindset. It's not like I gained it all back!!! But NOT losing weight, not paying attention to what I have been shoving in my mouth for the past few weeks, not being able to exercise (not even a little); not being able to stand the pain.. I have been eating pain pills like tic tacs the past few days.
It's time I kicked myself in the ass.. I need to start over! I think I am going to start by going on a clear liquid diet for a couple of days, then on to reg liquids for a week.. Moving on to mushies for a week.. Then back to regular food. Maybe I will have more respect for the food and the choices I will make.
I know its not like I have failed; but stumbled. I have to get back in gear. Now all I have to do is tell my brain what I am about to do, and make it sink in and stick there! Have you ever felt like you are 2 different personalities? The good girl and the wild child?!?! It's time I ground my wild child, she is out of control!
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I cannot get my spinal proceedures, too much of a risk of getting meningitis. SIGH! I'm getting discouraged. I cannot exercise what-so-ever! The thought of making my respitory work harder than it already is makes me want to scream! I received a Thank You letter
for my support from the Poise Pad company the other day. LOL My weight is at a stand still and everyone around me in my OH world is at around 75 lbs lost or more.. and I am still at 32lbs.
I KNOW I KNOW... Im not supposed to compare. I have just been wallowing in my pity party for the past month. It's time I get out of this mindset. It's not like I gained it all back!!! But NOT losing weight, not paying attention to what I have been shoving in my mouth for the past few weeks, not being able to exercise (not even a little); not being able to stand the pain.. I have been eating pain pills like tic tacs the past few days.
It's time I kicked myself in the ass.. I need to start over! I think I am going to start by going on a clear liquid diet for a couple of days, then on to reg liquids for a week.. Moving on to mushies for a week.. Then back to regular food. Maybe I will have more respect for the food and the choices I will make.
I know its not like I have failed; but stumbled. I have to get back in gear. Now all I have to do is tell my brain what I am about to do, and make it sink in and stick there! Have you ever felt like you are 2 different personalities? The good girl and the wild child?!?! It's time I ground my wild child, she is out of control!
Still at it
Oct 07, 2010
As of this morning.. I STILL HAVE BRONCHITIS!
(over a month now!) The ct scan came back clear, it was a shadow on my Xray. Thank heavens for that! I go back to the doctor on Tuesday for a recheck.
As for my lapband journey... I haven't lost anymore weight, BUT I haven't gained any either. Maybe one day soon I will be able to walk with Leslie Sansone again without going into a coughing fit and pee my pants. I am single handedly keeping Poise Pads in business!
Tuesday, while I am at the doctors office, I am giving in and going to ask for the Chantix. After 25 years of smoking... I QUIT! Yeah, I know.. I should have quit before.
.. Its like cheating with the band... I use my breathing treatment and then I can breathe again.. so I light up!... This cycle is about to STOP! Lord give me strength! 
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(over a month now!) The ct scan came back clear, it was a shadow on my Xray. Thank heavens for that! I go back to the doctor on Tuesday for a recheck.As for my lapband journey... I haven't lost anymore weight, BUT I haven't gained any either. Maybe one day soon I will be able to walk with Leslie Sansone again without going into a coughing fit and pee my pants. I am single handedly keeping Poise Pads in business!
Tuesday, while I am at the doctors office, I am giving in and going to ask for the Chantix. After 25 years of smoking... I QUIT! Yeah, I know.. I should have quit before.
.. Its like cheating with the band... I use my breathing treatment and then I can breathe again.. so I light up!... This cycle is about to STOP! Lord give me strength!
Not Sure What to Think.. Just know Im losing my mind
Sep 19, 2010
I have had my 2ND fill... so now I have 8cc's in my 14 cc band.. Going to keep my next appointment in a couple of weeks... still hungry too soon. I haven't been able to even exercise for about a month now. I have been sick on and off so I have been having to postpone my doctor appointments for my spinal procedures. My hips and lower back hurt so bad that it just makes me want to take a butcher knife cut someone up who pisses me off into little pieces some days. 
The latest is I have had bronchitis for the past 2 weeks. I am doing my 4th allbuteral nebulizer treatment of the day as I blog now. (I will probably have another one before I go to bed later) I've had Xrays on Tuesday and they showed no pneumonia but they found a mass in my right lower lobe. I got the call from the doctors office on Thursday telling me that I have an appointment on Friday afternoon. She said she got me the earliest appointment she could. WHAT A WAY TO SCARE THE HELL OUT OF SOMEONE!!! I went in Friday to have a ct scan to see what is going on. I won't find out what it is until later on this week. So I have been a nervous wreck. Not to mention a raving lunatic bitch!My poor hubby.. I have been barking at him right and left, screaming about everything. I even told him today I have had enough of the bitching and arguing ..to just move out. I know that I didn't mean it, but OMG.. I can only take so much!
I have even gained about 5-10 lbs.. ( Doc's scales said 8lbs) I know that isn't alot but at the same time I know that it is. I should be watching what I eat but at the same time right now, I really don't give a shit. I guess I will report later when I know something.
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The latest is I have had bronchitis for the past 2 weeks. I am doing my 4th allbuteral nebulizer treatment of the day as I blog now. (I will probably have another one before I go to bed later) I've had Xrays on Tuesday and they showed no pneumonia but they found a mass in my right lower lobe. I got the call from the doctors office on Thursday telling me that I have an appointment on Friday afternoon. She said she got me the earliest appointment she could. WHAT A WAY TO SCARE THE HELL OUT OF SOMEONE!!! I went in Friday to have a ct scan to see what is going on. I won't find out what it is until later on this week. So I have been a nervous wreck. Not to mention a raving lunatic bitch!My poor hubby.. I have been barking at him right and left, screaming about everything. I even told him today I have had enough of the bitching and arguing ..to just move out. I know that I didn't mean it, but OMG.. I can only take so much!
I have even gained about 5-10 lbs.. ( Doc's scales said 8lbs) I know that isn't alot but at the same time I know that it is. I should be watching what I eat but at the same time right now, I really don't give a shit. I guess I will report later when I know something.
If we are gonna fight.. I might as well name it!!
Aug 05, 2010
Holy Crap! I HATE HATE HATE plateaus!!!! This past 2 weeks I have been up 3 lbs and then down 1 then up 2 lbs and down 1...Yeah.. gained 3 lbs.. grrrr I was a little naughty for a few days last week.. and I have been paying for it now! GRRRRR stupid will power!
I haven't been watching what I eat or when I eat. Karl has been wanting home made chicken and noodles... OK I can do that.. I'm thinking.. chicken that's healthy!!! I can eat a few noodles... Holy Hannah!!! I forget about the mashed potatoes that goes with it!!! OH heck I can have a spoon full of those too.. it will be ok.. Ummm Robin.. what about the greens??? naaa we have potatoes.. those are veggies!!!(I was losing this fight!)
Lets just say... OMG...I was uncomfortable... I forgot to chew chew chew those noodles and chunks of chicken.. I chewed.. Don't get me wrong!!! I didn't inhale.. well, not all of it! LOL...just not chewed it like I should have!!! But, no stuck issues!! YAY!!! for that issue!
Did I listen to my band??? Here is how that went...
I hiccupped!!! IM FULL DOWN HERE!!!!!! NO MORE PLEASE!!! Oh one more bite won't hurt! DONT DO IT ROBIN!!! Ohh that was soo yummy... I still have a few bites left on my plate....it's only mashed potatoes..DONT DO IT ROBIN!!!!!!!! it should slide right through.. THERE'S NO ROOM!!! WHAT????? SLIDE THROUGH... THROUGH WHERE?? JUST WHERE IN THE HELL DO YOU THINK ITS GONNA GO STUPID!?! WATER?? OMG YOU HONESTLY THINK WE ARE SUPPOSED TO HAVE WATER WHEN YOU'RE STUFFING FOOD DOWN HERE??!!! GEESH!!!! Ok now I should have a little room... NO YOU DON"T!!! I patiently wait.. OH THANK GOODNESS YOU STOPPED!!! Ohhh.. ok... 1 more bite.. DIDN'T I SAY STOP? WHY ARE YOU NOT LISTENING???? I'M GONNA SEND IT BACK IF YOU DO THIS AGAIN!!! (heavy sigh and a few more hiccups) ok no more.. I put my plate in the kitchen (yeah we ate in the livingroom while we watched a movie) Now it's naptime.. I felt like I used to at thanksgiving!!! I fell asleep before the end of the movie..
Did I learn anything from this?? OMG yes! Now I am back to my normal eating pattern after that episode.. I hate it when it yells at me like that.. I am thinking I should name my band if I'm gonna fight with it! Any suggestions for a name?? I don't have one yet...
Well I weighed in this morning and I am now down to 340.8 I am finally back on track! Going down instead of going up!!! which makes it a loss of 29.2lbs.... WHEW!!!
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I haven't been watching what I eat or when I eat. Karl has been wanting home made chicken and noodles... OK I can do that.. I'm thinking.. chicken that's healthy!!! I can eat a few noodles... Holy Hannah!!! I forget about the mashed potatoes that goes with it!!! OH heck I can have a spoon full of those too.. it will be ok.. Ummm Robin.. what about the greens??? naaa we have potatoes.. those are veggies!!!(I was losing this fight!)
Lets just say... OMG...I was uncomfortable... I forgot to chew chew chew those noodles and chunks of chicken.. I chewed.. Don't get me wrong!!! I didn't inhale.. well, not all of it! LOL...just not chewed it like I should have!!! But, no stuck issues!! YAY!!! for that issue!
Did I listen to my band??? Here is how that went...
I hiccupped!!! IM FULL DOWN HERE!!!!!! NO MORE PLEASE!!! Oh one more bite won't hurt! DONT DO IT ROBIN!!! Ohh that was soo yummy... I still have a few bites left on my plate....it's only mashed potatoes..DONT DO IT ROBIN!!!!!!!! it should slide right through.. THERE'S NO ROOM!!! WHAT????? SLIDE THROUGH... THROUGH WHERE?? JUST WHERE IN THE HELL DO YOU THINK ITS GONNA GO STUPID!?! WATER?? OMG YOU HONESTLY THINK WE ARE SUPPOSED TO HAVE WATER WHEN YOU'RE STUFFING FOOD DOWN HERE??!!! GEESH!!!! Ok now I should have a little room... NO YOU DON"T!!! I patiently wait.. OH THANK GOODNESS YOU STOPPED!!! Ohhh.. ok... 1 more bite.. DIDN'T I SAY STOP? WHY ARE YOU NOT LISTENING???? I'M GONNA SEND IT BACK IF YOU DO THIS AGAIN!!! (heavy sigh and a few more hiccups) ok no more.. I put my plate in the kitchen (yeah we ate in the livingroom while we watched a movie) Now it's naptime.. I felt like I used to at thanksgiving!!! I fell asleep before the end of the movie..
Did I learn anything from this?? OMG yes! Now I am back to my normal eating pattern after that episode.. I hate it when it yells at me like that.. I am thinking I should name my band if I'm gonna fight with it! Any suggestions for a name?? I don't have one yet...
Well I weighed in this morning and I am now down to 340.8 I am finally back on track! Going down instead of going up!!! which makes it a loss of 29.2lbs.... WHEW!!!
STUCK!!!
Jul 26, 2010
HOLY HANNAH!!!
For lunch I decided to fix a hamburger patty and 12 french fries. (Yeah I counted them..lol) Not a great choice, I know, but I was craving them. Anyway, I thought I had better catch up on my emails and such while I ate. MISTAKE!
I wasn't paying attention to my chewing or bite sizes! Crap... what's that feeling? I took a drink of water.. burp! Well, more like a gurgle..No pain... but burp.. gurgle...burp.. gurgle What the.... go to the bathroom... omg... I threw up the water! I still felt the hamburger stuck.. but not as bad. It has been about 10 minutes and it finally subsided.
Do I want to finish my lunch?? Ummm NOOOOO.
Ok, Robin.. What have we learned today??? No distractions while eating! Chew, chew, chew. Pause between bites! So elementary, so simple.. yet so easy to forget!
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For lunch I decided to fix a hamburger patty and 12 french fries. (Yeah I counted them..lol) Not a great choice, I know, but I was craving them. Anyway, I thought I had better catch up on my emails and such while I ate. MISTAKE!
I wasn't paying attention to my chewing or bite sizes! Crap... what's that feeling? I took a drink of water.. burp! Well, more like a gurgle..No pain... but burp.. gurgle...burp.. gurgle What the.... go to the bathroom... omg... I threw up the water! I still felt the hamburger stuck.. but not as bad. It has been about 10 minutes and it finally subsided.
Do I want to finish my lunch?? Ummm NOOOOO.
Ok, Robin.. What have we learned today??? No distractions while eating! Chew, chew, chew. Pause between bites! So elementary, so simple.. yet so easy to forget!
First Fill and 28 lbs Down
Jul 22, 2010
Today was my first fill!!! He put in 4cc's in my 14 cc band! I was soo nervous; not to mention I have something going on with me.. dizzy and equilibrium is off!! So I had to lay down. THE THING WAS HUGE!!! I kept thinking OMG you're gonna stick that .. in me???? NOOOOOOO ITS TOO BIG!! That's not a needle, its one of those meat flavor injectors!!!
So he finds the port without having to use the xray thingy.. get's it on the first poke! Thank god for small favors! LOL He then tells me to sit up.. and leaves the needle sticking out of my tummy... A scene from one of those horror movies I like to watch.. haha He has me drink... and I feel nothing different... he said keep on drinking.. so I take about another 5 drinks.. nothing.. He was satisfied, I guess. He said OK.. I wont put in 5 cc's but I will leave it at 4. Ohh Ok.. then he gave me a cute "boo boo sticker" (my son's word for a bandaid) and I'm on my way! He wants to see me in 4 weeks to possibly do this again.. OH BOY!!!! I can't wait!!!
Now on to better things...
The liquid diet.. UGH.. I hated that the first time around. The only good thing that came out of the liquid stage was loosing soo much weight. Katy (my buddy) Told me. Well why don't you take advantage of it and lose like I did last time? OH YAH!!!!!!!!!!! I can definately do this part.. Im a pro at the liquid stage by now.. LOL
According to their scales.. I have lost 28 lbs so far!! YAY ME!!! Apparantly I misread my scales.. No biggie.. I like the fact that I have lost more than I originally thought!!!
So, here I go on another journey.. Wish me luck!
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So he finds the port without having to use the xray thingy.. get's it on the first poke! Thank god for small favors! LOL He then tells me to sit up.. and leaves the needle sticking out of my tummy... A scene from one of those horror movies I like to watch.. haha He has me drink... and I feel nothing different... he said keep on drinking.. so I take about another 5 drinks.. nothing.. He was satisfied, I guess. He said OK.. I wont put in 5 cc's but I will leave it at 4. Ohh Ok.. then he gave me a cute "boo boo sticker" (my son's word for a bandaid) and I'm on my way! He wants to see me in 4 weeks to possibly do this again.. OH BOY!!!! I can't wait!!!
Now on to better things...
The liquid diet.. UGH.. I hated that the first time around. The only good thing that came out of the liquid stage was loosing soo much weight. Katy (my buddy) Told me. Well why don't you take advantage of it and lose like I did last time? OH YAH!!!!!!!!!!! I can definately do this part.. Im a pro at the liquid stage by now.. LOL
According to their scales.. I have lost 28 lbs so far!! YAY ME!!! Apparantly I misread my scales.. No biggie.. I like the fact that I have lost more than I originally thought!!!
So, here I go on another journey.. Wish me luck!
My First 21 lbs down... a lot to go
Jul 19, 2010
I am soo excited!! I have lost 21 lbs in 1 month! This is a major accomplishment for me! I have decided to take my picture, whether I like it or not, every 20 pounds that I lose. This way I can see the transformation in "black and white" with no disputes!
I know this isn't a HUGE loss,... well actually it is... because I am going to keep it off this time! I know those 20 lbs are gone for good! YEAH BABY!
For some reason I have lost in my face and the boobage... Does it have a plan of its own? Start from the top and work its way south? I'm going to be funny looking with a gorgeous face, smaller boobage and a big ole butt! LOL
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I know this isn't a HUGE loss,... well actually it is... because I am going to keep it off this time! I know those 20 lbs are gone for good! YEAH BABY!
For some reason I have lost in my face and the boobage... Does it have a plan of its own? Start from the top and work its way south? I'm going to be funny looking with a gorgeous face, smaller boobage and a big ole butt! LOL
A Nice Kick in the Booty! (Thanks Bamasbelle! <3)
Jul 19, 2010
Ok so I have been lazy in the exercise department lately! Some due to my physical problem of my hip and back... other due to just laziness.
A friend of mine from OH... Bamasbelle and I were IMing last night.. (I LOVE HER FOR THIS!!!) She gave me the kick start I needed! Why didn't I think of this?? Sigh... I have no idea! Sometimes it takes a friend to get you motivated!
While I am sitting on the couch watching a movie...I can still exercise! Kicking my legs, moving my arms.. As long as I am moving it is exercise! Holy Hannah!!! This just might do it for those down days!!! Plus she gave me ideas for low impact exercise videos. WHAT A FRIEND!!!
NOW, THIS IS THE SUPPORT I NEED!
THANK YOU BAMA!! (hugs)
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A friend of mine from OH... Bamasbelle and I were IMing last night.. (I LOVE HER FOR THIS!!!) She gave me the kick start I needed! Why didn't I think of this?? Sigh... I have no idea! Sometimes it takes a friend to get you motivated!
While I am sitting on the couch watching a movie...I can still exercise! Kicking my legs, moving my arms.. As long as I am moving it is exercise! Holy Hannah!!! This just might do it for those down days!!! Plus she gave me ideas for low impact exercise videos. WHAT A FRIEND!!!
NOW, THIS IS THE SUPPORT I NEED!
THANK YOU BAMA!! (hugs)
Went Swimming
Jul 19, 2010
Saturday my son had a friend spend the night and they both wanted to go swimming! I was scared to even try on my swimsuit!!! I hadn't had it on since last summer and didn't know if it would fit. Well, I got it on.. barely!!! It was soo tight.. but I didn't care. They wanted to go. Mom's do those sacrifices for their kids.. sigh...
I felt a litle better after I got there.. I wasn't the only BBW at the pool! (Thank you lord!) Of course I got the stares and whispers from the skinny chicks.
This I ignored, I wasn't there for their amusement, I was there for my son's amusement! LOL Let them talk and whisper.. It will be a diferent story next summer!!
I swam a little, but didn't get to do the laps. So I hung on to the sides and did leg kicks; about 500 per set while sucking in my tummy. I felt the burn!!! The hardest part was trying to pull my big ass out of the pool! Thank god for hubby.. he said, don't worry he was right behind me if I needed him to help. He is such a sweety!! I love him to death! Personally I think he was hoping for any opportunity to grab my booty! LOL I was right about that assumption, I asked him about it later...
In the end of it all... we had a blast! Another memory to add to my son's collections...
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I felt a litle better after I got there.. I wasn't the only BBW at the pool! (Thank you lord!) Of course I got the stares and whispers from the skinny chicks.
This I ignored, I wasn't there for their amusement, I was there for my son's amusement! LOL Let them talk and whisper.. It will be a diferent story next summer!!I swam a little, but didn't get to do the laps. So I hung on to the sides and did leg kicks; about 500 per set while sucking in my tummy. I felt the burn!!! The hardest part was trying to pull my big ass out of the pool! Thank god for hubby.. he said, don't worry he was right behind me if I needed him to help. He is such a sweety!! I love him to death! Personally I think he was hoping for any opportunity to grab my booty! LOL I was right about that assumption, I asked him about it later...
In the end of it all... we had a blast! Another memory to add to my son's collections...
My 1st NSV!!!
Jul 12, 2010
I posted this on the forum... but I HAD to make sure I blogged it here too!!!
I read just about everyone's posts.. Great info here! HUGS!!!
Today I get to post my FIRST NSV!!! My mom and I went out saturday for girls day out! Shopping with NO GUYS LOL... We were trying to figure out where to eat... She just loves Steak N Shake! I figured that I could get a jr steakburger or soup and be fine. We were just chatting away like long lost friends... the hostess took us to our seats. I didn't even think the first thing about it and sat down.
Before mom sat down.. she said.. "umm Robin... look where you are sitting.. I'm so proud of you!" I thought for a minute.. and then I looked at where I was....... A BOOTH!!! I sat in the booth and the top 1/2 my tummy didn't rest on the table!!! OMG!!! I know that their booths are a little further away from the tables than most restaurants, but I always overlapped there too!!!
I have only lost 17 lbs since surgery.. but I guess that was enough!!! We laughed about how I became a cheap date... jr steakburger and kid size fries... I ate for $2.50..LOL I am so happy she was there to celebrate with me!!!
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I read just about everyone's posts.. Great info here! HUGS!!!
Today I get to post my FIRST NSV!!! My mom and I went out saturday for girls day out! Shopping with NO GUYS LOL... We were trying to figure out where to eat... She just loves Steak N Shake! I figured that I could get a jr steakburger or soup and be fine. We were just chatting away like long lost friends... the hostess took us to our seats. I didn't even think the first thing about it and sat down.
Before mom sat down.. she said.. "umm Robin... look where you are sitting.. I'm so proud of you!" I thought for a minute.. and then I looked at where I was....... A BOOTH!!! I sat in the booth and the top 1/2 my tummy didn't rest on the table!!! OMG!!! I know that their booths are a little further away from the tables than most restaurants, but I always overlapped there too!!!
I have only lost 17 lbs since surgery.. but I guess that was enough!!! We laughed about how I became a cheap date... jr steakburger and kid size fries... I ate for $2.50..LOL I am so happy she was there to celebrate with me!!!
About Me
GREENUP, IL
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55.0
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Surgery
06/18/2010
Surgery Date
May 17, 2009
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