Shasta L.

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The other day I got some pictures back from a party. This is a dreaded event for me. Most time I don't really have a body image, or really even think to much about it. I am way past being self conscious of my body, except when I see myself in a photo. Well there I was-very huge, but oh well I'll get over it soon enough. The only problem is now I am coming on this site and seeing all these before and after pictures and wishing it were me! I just want the surgery right now! I want to be in the losers circle. I wanted to have this surgery done before school starts, but it didn't look like that was going to happen so I decided that I would ahve it after school, but I don't think I can wait that long anymore. I want the surgery now!!!!!!!!!! I am gettin so impatient now( not a good virture), and I can't hardley stand it. I just want to scream!
AAHHHHHHHHHGGGG!!!!!!!!!!! Well since there is nothing I can do about it I guess i will just have to find a way to live with the wait(weight). Hopefully soon, though.

Okay I Finally got through to Jodi today. After three weeks of waiting for some paperwork I was promised, and week of just trying to get through to her. I had a two minute conversation in which I was told that she has nothing to do with my Psych and Nut eval, but she would contact the person who did, and have them call me. Hmmm, she couldn't have told me this the first time I called. I would have spent my time this last week trying to contact the person who does handle it. I don't know wether to be happy that I finally got through to someone, or upset that now I am going to have to get ahold of an entirely new person. My only conselation right now is that at least for the time being I no longer ahve to deal with Jodi, or the surgical associates office. I can only pray that the person I am dealing with now is easier to contact. Don't get me wrong Jodi and everyone else I have talked to at surgical associates are very nice, but come on , a week just to have a two minute phone conversation in which Im told i'll have to call someone else-thats ridiculous. They need to get some more help there.

I am really getting upset with my suregons office. it is starting to feel like this isn't going to happen. It seemed like, from what everyone said, that getting my insurance approval would be the hard part. It was not. i got my insurance approval in one day. The hardest part is working with my surgeons office, and getting them to do anything. I can't even get ahold of anyone. i got my insurance approval over a month ago. I called my surgeons office, and was told they would be sending me paperwork so that I could get my nut. and PSych. Eval done. This was three weeks ago. I still do not have anything.  I now have been trying to get ahold of someone for over a week to see what is going on. I have left message after message, and not heard anything. I have repeatedly asked to be called before three pm because I go to work. Well yesterday I finally recived a call -after I had already left to work. I was told to call back today and she would get back to me. Well I called, and then blocked out my whole day just waiting at home for the call-making sure the phone was free. Around 2om I got fed up, and called and said I neede to speak to someone right then. Well I was told that they had tried to reach me and got no answer(a total lie because like I said I stayed home all day, with the phone by my side), and that they woould get back to me later in the afternoo when tehy had time. I had to explain for the millionth time that I cannot be reached after 3pm. well now it is the weekend so i guess i will have to wait untill Mondday and try again. I guess I really just don't understand how it takes over a month just to get my appts. with the PSych. and Nut schedualed, and why it takes a week and counting to get ahold of someone at the surgeons office.

Okay, well I ahve been looking at profiles, and post form members who had thier wls surgery at least five years ago. I have been trying to gauge the long term success of members. It has been kind of deppressing seeing so many people who have gained all or most of thier weight back. It has made me wonder weather it is even worth it to go through all this trouble, and have a life threatening surgery if I ma only going to gain all the weight back in five years. However I kept looking and I have found profiles of people who have achieved long term success with the surgery. When I frist had my consultation with the surgeon I flat out asked, "Does this really work long term, and "What is the long term success of people who had RNY?" He told me that long term success was 80%, and that of those who regained weight it was due to not commiting to lifestyle changes. I don't know if I belive hom about the 80% success, but I do belive him that you have to follow through and make long term life style changes. I guess somewhe in the back of my mind I wished that this wold just be the magic potion that would make it so that I never had to worry about eating, or food, ro weight again, but I know that it is not true. I needed a reality check, and I got it. Weight loss is never easy, and nothing will ever make it easy, but I hope with this tool of WLS that it will at least make it possible. I will do everything in my power to use this tool, and make the lifestyle changes I must.  

6-21-07
Well I got my approval for  surgery about a week and a half ago. I thought that waiting for approval would be the hardest part of this process. However, it really didn't take that long to get my approval, and I am finding it is harder now waiting for my surgery date. I really just want to have it done. On the other hand though I am happy to ahve this time to prepare. i think I need this time to start to make the changes that will ahve to take place after WLS.
       
               Right now I am going through all the things I need to have done before they will give my surgery date. I have gone through a class on RNY, and had my first consult with my surgeon. Right now I am waiting to get my appointments with the nutritionist and psychiatrist. I will be moving at the end of August so I am hoping to have my surgery done at the ned of July/first of August at the latest.