romanoma
I am a 51 year old cnyorker. married to a great supportive man, 2 beautiful healthy teen boys.(12 /15) who don't really understand why i cannot just go on a diet and lose weight.. i am tired ALL the time, I work a very sedentary full time job, where creativity goes to die. But also, i write some great and interesting articles for the local paper.weekly. It is my joy, it gives me hope, I brings me my creativity on a plate.. I have struggled my ENTIRE life with being too fat.
Various forms of fat, but fat nonetheless. I want to do this. I want to be thin.. for once in my life i want to experience buying clothes in the regular size section. Even shoes.. PJ's, bras.
They have some great clothes NOW for large size es. but when i was growing up , it was polyester pants...all polyesters, plaid, loud colors. crocheted vests.. they don't look good on anyone , let alone on a 200 plus teenager. College was great. I felt free. new friends. some MEN friends. mostly drunk. but i will take any way i can get um. Always had girlfriends. still do. from elementary , high school and a few from college. all women though. the boys made fun, they bullied me every single day in elem. not too much in high school, and almost none in college.
i want to be 140 lb middle age woman, who can run, walk ride a bike and be around to see my wonderful boys go to college, meet their loves, marry and have gradbabies. and i want so babysit and run around with them. I know nothing is guaranteed. know that early. lost my dad at 12 and mom at 19. i know all about heartbreak, pain and not wanting to get up in the morning...
well, at 51 , i want to get up in the morning and eat my Greek yogurt..