my third year anniversary
Feb 02, 2009
I think about all that has happened in the three years since my surgery. I cannot focus too much on my weight now because of all else that is going on in my life. My weight increased and I am now 198, but I had a very good reason. I got pregnant.
Shortly after I adopted my daughter, I fell in love with someone and I got pregnant. When a doctor tells you that you probably won't have any children when you are obese, remember that this does not apply to you any longer when you lose 200 pounds.
I struggle to work on getting the weight off again after I had the baby...a girl, by the way. But I am not obsessing over it.
My weight loss surgery is a distant memory now. I am doing pretty well and I am eating normally and having a normal life. I never thought that not only would I be able to lose my weight, but I would also find a man who would love me (he knew me before I lost weight too and didn't have a problem with my size, so I feel good about that).
I did get frustrated the other day when I tried some clothes on. But I had to remind myself that three years ago, I could not even buy clothes in a store because the sizes didn't go high enough.
My life is complicated and weight loss surgery does not cure everything, but it allows you to focus on other stresses and forget that this one ever happened.
I am still happy with my DS and would recommend others to have it. I have recommended it to two people--one had it and one didn't. The one who had it is having a wonderful life. The one who didn't is still having hygeine problems, is having to sit up to sleep, has not ever had a date...and now he has lost his job because he is too obese. I feel sorry for him and sad that he did not find the courage to do this surgery before he lost his health insurance benefits. I know the struggle in the decision, and I don't fault him, but I do wish he could have done it. Now he will never know the happiness his life could bring.
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Shortly after I adopted my daughter, I fell in love with someone and I got pregnant. When a doctor tells you that you probably won't have any children when you are obese, remember that this does not apply to you any longer when you lose 200 pounds.
I struggle to work on getting the weight off again after I had the baby...a girl, by the way. But I am not obsessing over it.
My weight loss surgery is a distant memory now. I am doing pretty well and I am eating normally and having a normal life. I never thought that not only would I be able to lose my weight, but I would also find a man who would love me (he knew me before I lost weight too and didn't have a problem with my size, so I feel good about that).
I did get frustrated the other day when I tried some clothes on. But I had to remind myself that three years ago, I could not even buy clothes in a store because the sizes didn't go high enough.
My life is complicated and weight loss surgery does not cure everything, but it allows you to focus on other stresses and forget that this one ever happened.
I am still happy with my DS and would recommend others to have it. I have recommended it to two people--one had it and one didn't. The one who had it is having a wonderful life. The one who didn't is still having hygeine problems, is having to sit up to sleep, has not ever had a date...and now he has lost his job because he is too obese. I feel sorry for him and sad that he did not find the courage to do this surgery before he lost his health insurance benefits. I know the struggle in the decision, and I don't fault him, but I do wish he could have done it. Now he will never know the happiness his life could bring.
made my conservative goal
Mar 23, 2007
I was able to post this week that I had made my goal. I was shocked to be able to do it. It was my conservative goal of 185. I know I look okay at this weight and i didn't want to let myself down in disappointment if I could not make it any lower.
Well, to my surprise, I continued to lose and am currently at 179. My dream goal is really 165. I am beginning to think that maybe I can do it. It is really really hard to stay that low for me. I struggled all through high school to get to that level. So we will have to see.
I shopped for clothes today. I had to. Even my doctor's office said they were going to get a collection up for me to get a new wardrobe. I woke up today and only had two pair of pants to chose from and one clean shirt. I thought shopping for clothes would be fun, but in a way it is kind of an ordeal. I never know what size I am, clothes are just as ugly in smaller sizes, and most importantly, it is hard to find a budget for these clothes you have to keep buying.
the good news is that you can find clothes and they usually fit. i am now braving finding tops that are waist level. Who knows, maybe next I will actually tuck a shirt in! Naw, not yet....ehehehehhehehe I was amazed that I could be in the regular women's sizes...no more plus sizes. I cannot buy much now because I am swollen from recent hernia repair and plastics, so my size is kind of inaccurate, but I tried on a size 14 pants and to my amazement, they fit. I also am in XL tops. Part of my problem is that my thighs and arms are flabby with loose skin, so it throws the size off a bit. So I went to Kohl's to buy cheap stuff.
I have noticed something wth my goal. People who are close to this in weight are starting to get threatened. They are now saying things like, "Well, that is good that you made it to goal. i am not sure if I should congratulate you though." It is also prompting many to go on a diet so that I cannot catch up with them. The thing I am really surprised at is that these are the people I did not reaize I was making feel so good because I was the fat friend. Now i am no longer the fat friend. They look at me and think panic! I guess it is their problem and not mine, but ti was a little offputting to hear these comments of jealousy and anymosity.
As far as the adoption front...things are still in waiting-game mode. I did get some new updated photos of Lourdes and she is just beautiful. She is starting to grow up a little and it is making me sad that I am not with her. But I will get her in the next several months, I hope.
As to recovery from my surgery...it still seems slow. I am still a little listless. I did drive for the first time since surgery. It was nice to assert my independance again. It was hard to have that privilege taken away.
I did have a funny moment a couple days ago. I was reading to my son, and he put his head against my chest. He quickly sat bolt upright and looked at me in surprise. He then hit my breast and asked, "Where'd go?" LOL. He noticed that he lost his comfortable little pillows!
Well, to my surprise, I continued to lose and am currently at 179. My dream goal is really 165. I am beginning to think that maybe I can do it. It is really really hard to stay that low for me. I struggled all through high school to get to that level. So we will have to see.
I shopped for clothes today. I had to. Even my doctor's office said they were going to get a collection up for me to get a new wardrobe. I woke up today and only had two pair of pants to chose from and one clean shirt. I thought shopping for clothes would be fun, but in a way it is kind of an ordeal. I never know what size I am, clothes are just as ugly in smaller sizes, and most importantly, it is hard to find a budget for these clothes you have to keep buying.
the good news is that you can find clothes and they usually fit. i am now braving finding tops that are waist level. Who knows, maybe next I will actually tuck a shirt in! Naw, not yet....ehehehehhehehe I was amazed that I could be in the regular women's sizes...no more plus sizes. I cannot buy much now because I am swollen from recent hernia repair and plastics, so my size is kind of inaccurate, but I tried on a size 14 pants and to my amazement, they fit. I also am in XL tops. Part of my problem is that my thighs and arms are flabby with loose skin, so it throws the size off a bit. So I went to Kohl's to buy cheap stuff.
I have noticed something wth my goal. People who are close to this in weight are starting to get threatened. They are now saying things like, "Well, that is good that you made it to goal. i am not sure if I should congratulate you though." It is also prompting many to go on a diet so that I cannot catch up with them. The thing I am really surprised at is that these are the people I did not reaize I was making feel so good because I was the fat friend. Now i am no longer the fat friend. They look at me and think panic! I guess it is their problem and not mine, but ti was a little offputting to hear these comments of jealousy and anymosity.
As far as the adoption front...things are still in waiting-game mode. I did get some new updated photos of Lourdes and she is just beautiful. She is starting to grow up a little and it is making me sad that I am not with her. But I will get her in the next several months, I hope.
As to recovery from my surgery...it still seems slow. I am still a little listless. I did drive for the first time since surgery. It was nice to assert my independance again. It was hard to have that privilege taken away.
I did have a funny moment a couple days ago. I was reading to my son, and he put his head against my chest. He quickly sat bolt upright and looked at me in surprise. He then hit my breast and asked, "Where'd go?" LOL. He noticed that he lost his comfortable little pillows!
About Me
Upper border, IL
Location
30.8
BMI
Surgery
02/01/2006
Surgery Date
Sep 28, 2005
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