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I was just looking at my things I would like to do and I have done most of them.  I now wear clothes with the word P in them, since I am short no more X or W.  My hubby and I went away and I easily fit in the hotel robe with room to spare.  We got season passes to Marine world since we are so close! I can't wait.  Bathing suit still a hard one.

I am close to 9 months out and am still losing.  I have my days where I think I am going to do it and other days where I think I will need stage 2.  I have however lost 11o lbs and am still going.

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Being a competative person I am having difficulty with how slow I am losing compared to others.  I feel so much stress about it.  I have almost developed an irrational fear of seeing my surgeon and knowing how far behind I am.  On some level I know I will get there in my own time.  I can't help but feel like a disappointment to myself.

It has been seven months since surgery.  I am down 90 lbs and have gained some new insight. 
Food is neither my friend nor my enemy.
There is no such thing as bad and good food, its just food.
I am not on a diet, there are things I just choose  and choose not to eat.
I need to learn to like excercise.
 Two bites is enough of anything, that isn't protien or veg.
I did eat alot.
My weight is not just genetics.

Things I still need to learn:
To like to ecercise
To accept me for me
To be proud of my accomplishments

Things I want to do:
Wear clothes with out the words X or W in the size label
Not worry if the hotel robe wil fit me
Wear a bathing suit in public
Go on a bunch of roller coasters