rvotro71907
My story is pretty simple... I was about 125 lbs as a young adult. I lost 3 pregnancies in a little of a year which helped me pack on weight. After the 3rd pregnancy I was up to about 170-180 pounds. I was in a serious car accident in 1995 which affected my pregnancy in 1998. The main nerve in my hip was damaged and it caused me to be put on bed rest for almost my whole pregnancy. After I delivered my daughter I weighed 226lbs. My husband left me 10 days after our daughter was born for another woman. Due to the stress of being a new mom and my husband leaving I got my weight down to 170. He came back after a few months and we worked on our marriage. I joined Jenny Craig a year or two later and managed to get my weight down to 150lbs before I got pregnant with my son. I again was told that I could not be active while pregnant so I weighed about 250lbs after I delivered him in 2003. I tried Atkins, South Beach, and Optifast, but I can't get the weight off. I started the bariatic surgery program in Aug of 2006 and I finally got approved for surgery and have a date. I was completely against having surgery up until a couple of years ago. Even when I started the program at the University I still wasn't sure if I was going to go through with it. I met with the University, counsleors, my family doctor, and read books in order to make my final decision. It is time I get my life back. I am only 32 years old and somewhere in all this weight I lost who I am. I used to be vibrant and outgoing. I am now very shy, quiet, and don't socialize much. I am too ashamed of how I look and feel. I am very excited about having surgery. It is motivating to know that I will be able to lose weight and keep it off for a change. My husband was supportive of my decision, but he left about a month ago. In February he confessed that he has feelings for my best friend. I tired to salvage my marriage, but in the end he left me for her. We still talk from time to time and he said that he is happy that I finally got my approval. This is the 4th time I have been down this road with him. Each time he has cheated I have begged him to stay and I have forgiven him and taken him back. Recently he told me that he has no respect for me because he feels that he can do whatever he wants to me and I would take him back. This hurt because he is right. I feel like I am a door mat because of my weight. I feel like no one else could possibly love me because of how I look and feel about myself. I believe that if I didn't have such an issue with my weight and my health that I would have had the self confidence to send him packing a long time ago. That is my ultimate goal with this surgery. I want to get back my self confidence, independence, and strength.
