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Hi, my name is Becki, and I'm in the beginning stages of my weight loss journey. I am 33 yrs old, and a single mother to a handsome, very active and curious 3 year old boy. I have so many emotions going through me right now; I am scared, impatient, and excited. I can't tell you how many times I have said that I would love to look like I did when I was in high school, start dieting and working toward the goal, and get so discouraged after about two months or less.
A week before I gave birth to my son, I of course had to step on the scale at my weekly OB appt, and I was so upset. That day I weighed more then I ever thought I would in my life. I had reached 306 lbs. and even though I was pregnant I just couldn't get past the fact that I weighed that much. After I had my son I was determined to get the weight off. I went to see my PCP and she gave me my usual regimine: Phentermine, Prozac, and Xenical. Within two months I was down to 272 lbs., and I was happy that I was losing weight, I started going back to college and my sons father started doing what he needed to do.
Of course, in my life nothing stays good for too long. My son ended up getting extremely ill, and at 5 mts old he had to be flown from Upper Chesapeake to University of MD Pediatric ICU. When they intubated him and put him on the ventilator, I felt my world collapsing around me, and I had a hard time staying strong for my angel. I had to quit college again, and then I started to have financial problems. The whole 17 days I was in the hospital with my son I did nothing but eat, because I am an emotional eater. I'm sure you can guess I gained back some of the weight I lost. When things started getting better I started the whole cycle again.
Back in December 2007, I went to the information session for Upper Chesapeake Bariatric Surgery, and I was determined to have this surgery done. In January 2008, I had my first consultation, and I was given all the information I needed for insurance approval. However, I ended up extremely sick and had to go on a medical leave. I then ended up losing my insurance when I went on short term disability. As you probably already know, I had to stop the process.
Now here I am, my son is 3 years old and I am at my highest weight ever, as of August 27, 2008 I weigh 318 lbs. I am so tired of this vicious cycle. I just want to be "normal" in size and not judged because I'm overweight. My PCP has been wanting me to have this surgery for years, and when I saw her on the 27th she basically told me I had to have it. I of course have new insurance, which is Priority Partners (MD Insurance for Families), and they told me that it is a 100% covered benefit. My PCP also has me on 80mg of Prozac and 60mg of Adderall XR a day. She says that should help me lose some of the weight before surgery, and my insurance requires 6 months medically supervised weight loss. Last week, I had my Sleep Study and Cardiology Evaluation done, and I'm cleared on them. This week I am having my Pulmonology Evaluation, and next week is my GI Evaluation. I'm holding off on the Psych Evaluation until I am closer to finishing my 6 months supervised, because they require me to pay $225.00 up front. They say they will refund that if the insurance pays for it. I just wish there was a faster process.
Sorry for the long introduction, but I got started and couldn't stop lol. It feels good to tell my story, and this is the short version lol. If you have any information that you think would help me or just want to chat, feel free to contact me. I am so glad that I have begun this journey to change my life for the better.
