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It has been 6 weeks since my surgery and I have lost 37 lbs.  What a difference those 37 lbs have made in my life.  I lost 9 lbs on the pre-op diet for a total of 46 lbs.  I am exercising at least 5 times a week and it is amazing how much easier I can move around.  I am so much more active and I am much more flexible.  I went walking this evening and I had my ipod on and noticed that I was passing many of the walkers at the park.  That was a fabulous feeling because I used to have a terrible time walking.  It would always hurt my legs and ankles and I would give up so easily.  I working on my masters degree in education and taking 5 classes along with 2 full days of teaching 4th grade and I don't think I would have been able to do it pre-surgery.  This was the best decision I have ever made and I feel like I am living a fulfilled life for the first time in a long time.  The first few weeks were rough and I am slowly adapting to these major life changes but it is so well worth it.  I hope this will be inspirational for people that are are planning on having surgery or going through those first few weeks.  The results will keep you motivated and how you feel will make you so happy.  I can't wait to see how my body will change in these next 12-18 months.  I have totally changed my views on food and I actually enjoy food more now because it is like a treat and I actually taste it instead of shoveling in huge quantities.  Anyway, just had to get that off of my ever shrinking chest.  FYI.... my boobs will NEVER be the same! 

I am officially excited that I had this surgery.  I have lost 29 lbs since the surgery and I feel wonderful!  It has not been easy but it has been soooo worth it.  I am wearing clothes that I haven't worn in years and I feel so much better.  I can actually sleep on my stomach and I feel so lucky that I didn't have any complications from the surgery and I have had very little nausea.  I am eating fine and have only had a few mishaps!  I can't wait to continue losing weight!

Surgery went great!  No problems and I am pleased with my progress.  I had the surgery on Wednesday and was home by 1:30 on friday.  I haven't had a great deal of pain. I think the worst thing was a headache from the anesthesia.  I haven't had any pain today and haven't taken any pain meds.  I weighed  289 when I entered the hospital wednesday and now I weigh 281.  I have not been hungry and had to make an effort to drink broth and fluids!  I will post more in the future!  SO far I am soooo Happy that I had this surgery!  I am ready to lose weight! 

I am a bundle of nerves right now.  I wanted my surgery date to hurry up and get here and now it is five days away and I am SCARED!  I know that I shouldn't be but I just keep thinking of what if?  Then to make matters worse, my skinny best friend that has never had to watch her weight a day in her life, told me that she couldn't believe that I was doing something this dangerous when all I need to do is diet and exercise.  I told her that I appreciated her concern but I will die if I continue on the weight path that I am on.  I am sure that everyone has felt this way about their surgery but I just wonder if I am doing the right thing.  I guess I shouldn't say that because I know that I am doing the right thing.  I am 32 years old and creeping up on 300lbs.  I have sleep apnea, infertility and borderline diabetic.  I know that this is what I need to do to become a healthier person but I am scared of the pain of surgery and then afraid I will have complications afterwards.  I need the proverbial slap in the face right now to snap me out of this!  But then I get excited because I think of how great thin will feel!  I am also scared of the roller coaster of emotions that I know will continue throughout this process.  I am so lucky to have a supportive husband and family.  Whew, I had to get that off of my chest!  Going to snuggle with my hubby!  Goodnite people! 

I had all of my pre-op training, testing, poking prodding and now starting the pre-op diet.  I am excited!  I want my liver to shrink so it won't get in the way.  They have definitely put the fear of God in me about having a big, lumpy liver during surgery so I will drink my shakes like a good little girl.  I have 4 weeks left and can't believe everything has gone so smoothly.  I am a bit nervous and I am scared of pain but i have decided that pain meds are there for a reason and I will not let my pain level get above a 5!  No since in hurting when they have the remedy!  Dr. Feelgood!!!!!  I have been working on a list of reasons to have the surgery and decided to come up with a top ten list just like Letterman.

TOP  10 REASONS TO HAVE WLS:

10) Finally being able to fit in an airplane sit without worrying about a seatbelt extender or who I will be smushing in the seat next to me. 
9) Being able to sit in a white plastic yard chair without it sticking to my ass when I stand up and worrying about breaking the chair.
8) Being able to play softball with my niece and nephew and actually being able to run the bases.
7) Going to the potty like a normal person.  If you are a fatty like me then you know what I am talking about!  wiping is a nightmare!
6) Being able to sit in my husband's lap without hearing him say ouch!  He tries not to but I squeeze it out of him!
5) Getting rid of my Darth Vader (cpap) mask!
4) Being able to cross my legs!
3) Wear skirts without chafing!
2) Ride roller coasters!!!!  I used to love to do this until I couldn't fit in one and swore I would never try it again!
1) Living a normal, healthy and active lifestyle!  

I don't ask for much do I?  Oh well I guess I better hit the sack.  I have concoctions to prepare in the morning as I embark on my protein shake journey!!!!!

I got my approval letter from my insurance company and now I am waiting on my Dr. to schedule my surgery!  I am excited but nervous.  The process has flown by and now the nerves are starting to kick in.  I have had a sore throat and fever for the last few days and nothing tastes good. and I can't hardly swallow  I have been miserable because of that fact so I have had a little taste of what it will be like to not have food as my crutch.  I know I will make it and I can't wait to start the next phase of my Healthy ME lifestyle change! 

YAY!!!!!

The hubby and I had supper with our bestest friends tonight and I ate too much.  We had meatloaf, mashed potatoes, green beans and cheesecake.  I was thinking how I will miss eating like a fat person.  I want to be healthy and thin and feel sooooo much better but I am going to have a hard time without my comfort foods.  I hope I can make it.  I think this surgery will be more of a mental challenge than anything.  It is like eating is my best friend and I have to give my best friend up because he is no good for me.  I know this sounds silly but it is a little heartbreaking for me.  When did my life start to revolve around food?  I am going to visit my friend in Rock Hill, SC next week and we have already planned out where we are going to eat.  I want to eat Indian Food because I know that I won't be able to pig out anymore after the surgery.  How strange is that?  It is like I am visiting my favorite places before I move away.  I will miss them but I know the quality of my life will be so much better.  I am going to find a hobby to occupy my time instead of food.  I am thinking of cross stitch, tennis, bunco, bridge, scrapbooking, paintballing, puzzle making, crocheting, photography, exercising........ etc.!  Which one will I choose?  I need to get cracking!  I have a hobby to find!

I am having an endoscopy tomorrow and will be one step closer to my surgery!  I received a call from my doctor's office last week and my insurance company wants a 5 year weight history and then they will make the decision to approve me or not for the surgery.  I figure that I am fat enough and they have to approve me for this surgery and I have been fat for the past 10 years.  I did not have a weight problem growing up though.  I was too active and when I stopped sports I put on the pounds.  Wish me luck!!!!!!  I am so ready to get healthy!  Keep your fingers crossed that everything will go ok and we can move on to the next step.

See ya!

Heart cath went great!  It was a little bit painful but I will have the ok for surgery.  The next step is an endoscopy and then ultrasound on my veins in my legs.  I am ready to get the surgery over with.  I can't wait to actually fit into society.  I am going back to school for my master's and I can't even fit in a desk in the classroom.  I have a hard time sitting on the floor interacting with the children in my classes.  I never realized how insecure I am about my weight until I keep envisioning my life as a skinny person.  The world will be my oyster!

It is 1:19 am and I am wide awake.  My husband and I have to leave at 4:00 am to head to the hospital for a heart catheterization.  I am a bit nervous but I think the procedure is relatively minor.  I have made the decision to have gastric bypass and I am anxious to find out if I will be approved by my insurance company.  I am ready to start my life and health makeover!  I have been overweight for 10 years and I said that I would never reach 300 lbs.  I was wrong!  I never imagined that I would be this big and I see how easy it is to lose control of your weight the bigger I get.  It gets harder and harder to exercise and do normal activities in my life.  I am ready to do things without worrying if I will fit or break the chair!  I want to get on an airplane and know that I won't need a seatbelt extender or worry about who I will be sitting by.  I am ready for my life to begin!!!!!!