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Its been so long, so much has changed in my life its hard to keep up. I had a car wreck back in November but survived and im so grateful for life! As far as weightloss Im at 135-140 currently a size small or 4/6 not sure if i want to go smaller cause it seems like i was cursed with huge hips and a narrow face.. ;p the weight loss comes from my upper body and im already a b cup! Im hoping to get my plastics done within the next year. I really hate the loose skin. its not too horrific but id like to be able to wear shorts..tanks etc without thinking twice! Hope all is well until next time! xoxoxo M

Great labs, feeling ok! Just keep swimming.. Lol

 Back to health cut back on carbs massively and feel amazing. Labs were ok not perfect but ok. 

but for now lets just say I had a downfall in my health for a bit ended up in the hospital for almost a week due to liver issues/ gallbladder full of sludge.. but im back on track now and am in a rough patch with the weight loss (plateau for months) just keep swimming, lol! Thats all I can do! working on getting enough protein and exercise, vites and trying to enjoy life again!  

oh forgot to mention my labs were picture perfect at 6 months.. gonna get my 9 months done tomorrow! :)

I'm a bit behind on this post but, I am super excited that I am 6 months out and down over 100lbs! I have gone out of obese and just into overweight, I'm so excited and happy with how things are going lately. Ive got a better handle on what I put in my mouth with protein, carbs and vitamins! And Ive been getting in lots of exercise! YAY GO ME!! LOL I'm not sure but i think I may change my goal to a higher weight because I am not sure what weight will look best on me. I am thinking of bumping it up ten pounds or so. Here's some pics of me from new years eve!
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and I still am overwhelmed, despite increased vitamins and protein my hair is still falling out, well guess its meant to be! I am not gonna worry about it and just hope it comes back in eventually, gonna start wig hunting!! I seem to have hit a wall with weight loss im stuck here at 178, could just possibly be my carb addiction, wow.. i wish i could stop, I have finally let go of my candy binges and now im moving back to carbs.., like cereal and tortillas hard to quit.. but i still love meat and protein i just seem to add the carbs in after like say an hour later i get an overwhelming urge to eat sugary/ or carby things and my stomach seems to allow this with no problems, i feel like im screwing myself over here, need a slap to the face with some ice water, anyway, I have been more active though and clothes feel bigger, so i dont know what the deal is.. Ive been jogging and i love it.. it feels great! This month warrants a visit to my surgeon and a 6 month surgiversary on the 16th. I will be back by then to update, until then.. thanks for listening and feel free to message and or comment, i dont bite unless u want me too! haha!  

 This past month has been so mind boggling with the loss of hair and weight that i cant even keep up on here properly,I apologize but i do feel overwhelmed at this point, I ended up cutting the hair off and donating to locks of love and that makes me feel good inside It was so emotional to cut it cause i feel like i barely have any left.. i see the fuzz? coming back but so much is still leaving me on a daily basis, F***! It is so sad to me. K Moving on now, just gonna post a realy quick body shot that was taken with my cell phone, I have been much more active lately and able to eat more and getting in more vitamins its so confusing but im just gonna keep on chugging! I am at 84 pounds lost now and even though i have lots more to go my family is starting to call me skinny, LOL and telling me i shouldnt lose too much more.. haha what do they know!>?!

as of yesterday and I'm down 76 lbs. I am so happy! I seem to be having issues when i run into old friends where they notice but don't say anything :( It makes me sad.. I want recognition dammit! One friend kinda came out and told me she didn't say anything cause she thought i would get mad at her and say what was I that fat before! LOL silly girl. nope I need reassurance that i look different cause my eyes haven't caught up yet.. still feel huge. Here's a pic where i thought i looked smaller and Ill end here cause I'm famished!!












Carb monster is attacking along with sweets monster but I am gonna be good a make a cake shake.. yum! 

 Let me begin by saying I am not really sure where I stand as far as how far out I am . Technically it will be 4 months exactly on the 16Th of October but I can also count weeks and I'm sure its been more than 16.. anyhow. I will go by months just so I don't confuse myself anymore. :) Convenient for me, hell yes!  

 I have been really moody and that has me very confused about the real me. I remember basically kissing ass to most people just so i could be accepted but am now finding that is no longer me.. people are treating me better and it does bother me but what i mean is friends and faux friends (the not so reliant ones) I haven't been putting up with their shit anymore. I have told people how i felt about situations almost instantaneously its like there's no filter upstairs anymore.. i think its less stressful on my mind and body to just get it out and not hold things in!   Vitamins have got better i have been doing at least 2 chewables daily. I really need to get into doing the whole shebang by getting them all lined up in bags, which is my plan for tonight. Had my labs done and I'm good in everything but vit D and folic acid slightly low. My surgeon only requested that i take a prenatal but i know others vets on here would suggest I stay on top rather than fall below and climb my way back up. Soooo I will be taking biotin and adek, etc. Food has its ups and downs.. sometimes I'm really good with it other days I wanna gag at the sight..again working on meeting my required daily intake.  

Physically lots of weird stuff going on but nothing serious I imagine. I have been getting gross skin again, so definitely need to up the vites. Its been itchy and getting some acne on the jawline again. More water must be pressed as well as getting on some kind of facial care.. usually do clinique but looking to try others. I also am losing tons of hair which is never cool but luckily i have been through this before after the birth of my son and I know it will end so its not really bothering me as much as it could be.. my family on the other hand are tired of finding orange hairs all over them, lol!  

 I have been doing lots more walking and cycling at the gym, I really want to try jogging despite the pains in my knees when walking I will get some knee supports or whatever it takes. I am gonna hit the high school track with the family tonight bet it will feel really good its been getting hot again lately! Still haven't got my swimming on but I'm sure that will be resolved within the month (long story).   Its been really surreal trying on old clothes in my closet and having them either fit or be slightly big :O I guess i will have to eBay it all :( but its all for the greater good. I was able to wear some boots out and have the buckles on them actually go into the built in holes and not the ones I "made" so my fat legs would fit. I think right now I'm in Large tops and XL bottoms. I am very excited to know how close i am to being done with weight loss.. anything less than 100 pounds is music to my ears right now and I am so grateful for it all!

Decided to do some different front back and side views while at Disneyland:



 
And this one is just for fun!

 Ive been super busy and havent had time to update properly. so this ones not the greatest update but I just have to document I made it to onederland!! I am at exactly 199 :D and ill throw in a pic of my haircut :) YAY Im down 70 pounds!!!!

Real update hopefully this weekend!! Hope everyone is doing well!