Sherry M.

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Continuously I am up and down on the scale, which is directly related to my emotions...as a logical person you would think I would be able to control this a little better since I know what the problem is!  I cannot stop myself from eating 6 Oreo or a snack sized candy bar (or two).  The only difference is that it is 3 Oreo's then 3 more in 15 minutes where before surgery it was 1/2 bag of Oreo's with a quart of milk.  Now it is a bite sized candy bar not 1 or 2 candy bars.  Logically it doesn't make sense to self soothe with food, but I don't think logic enters into this equation at all.  Some weeks, I am perfect to the "T", and I lose 4 lbs or more.  Then I have a great success and seem as if I am sabotaging my weight loss efforts.  What do I have to gain (but weight) from eating that comforting little food?  I really have to get my head on better.  The good thing is I have a weight loss partner at work that tries to keep me in check, though she won't deny me if I really have to have something she just reminds me to journal my food intake.  Even though she is close to her goal weight and I have 90 lbs to go we both strugle with the exact same things (She has not had WLS though).  I weigh on Thursday so I have 2 more days to get  going in the right direction....wish me luck!  Be well everyone.   S

It is funny how I measure a week, if it was "good" or "bad", by the scale!  I know, logically that this isn't always a true measure but none the less I measure it as so.  I believe logic has very little to do when it comes to my weight loss!  Logically by the numbers of calories in and out I should be losing 3-4 lbs every week.  This week, I lost 4 lbs so this is true, but some weeks ("bad" weeks) I gain or stay the same for no logical reason!  I do know about water weight fluctations, hormonal fluctuations etc., but come on!!!  I am so tired of excuses...I just don't want to make any more excuses.  I just want to have a healthy relationship with weight, scales and food.  I want to be free of this bondage in my mind!  I still have a lot of work to do and maybe writing this down will let me take one more step toward being free...Be well everyone...Sherry

So I went to the Gym tonight for water areobics and my swimsuit is a 22, but I thought everything would be ok even though it was a little loose...NOT!!  I kept one hand on the front of the swimsuit to keep my boobs from "floating" away and still had difficulty moving in the water because holding the suit closed pulled from the sides and was still showing more breast than I was comfortable with.  I had on shorts thank goodness, but no T-Shirt.  I am wearing a size 18 loosely in clothes so maybe I should breakdown and buy a swimsuit in the right size.  Hope everyone is doing well...Sherry

It is raining outside so I shall stay inside and post to my blog instead of going outside!  I have started working out some this week and though it is slow going it is still moving...I am doing water aerobics and if any of you guys have visited central coast California you know it is a might chilly to be dancing in the water outside at the YMCA, but nevertheless I go anyways, I figure the shivering alone is burning calories.  I am in a pattern with losing weight, I will lose 5 lbs for 2 weeks in a row then gain 0.2 lbs up to 0.6 lbs then start losing again...I am okay with that as long as I am still headed in the correct direction! 

I love the bagel thins with 6 grams of protein and 5 grams of fiber, the first bread I can eat and it is so delish... I place a scrambled egg with a sprinkle of shredded cheese..YUM.  I really appreciate all the support everyone gives on here, the recipes, the advice, it is really awesome.  I have to confess that drinking while I am eating is one of my worse failures, I am trying to be better, but it is really hard.  I am glad I can drink more at a time, when I first got this done I was thinking what a bummer that I could only drink one swallow at a time.  I do read blogs of people that are losing amazingly fast and they are doing everything right...and only eating 6-800 calories and nothing forbidden touches their lips...I cannot be that person, wish I could but I cannot.  I struggle with food related temptations daily, most of the time I win, occasionally I lose, but then I just realize that this is a new moment and I continue to try to be as good as possible.

Hope everybody is doing well, Sherry

I really never thought I would be writing that I can't wait to work out, but here I am writing it and meaning it.  I had a cortisone injection in my knee last Monday, and this Monday no pain except for a dull ache in my knee remains.  It is amazing!  I feel like maybe by Wednesday I can start slowly working out again.  The Doctor has determined that it was an overuse injury.  Never thought I would have an overuse injury, but apparently 45 minutes on the elipitical machine is too much at least at the weight i am right now.  He wants me to to limit my activity to 20 minutes 3-4 times a week to treadmill or bicycle right now and see if there is any pain.  He also says I can walk around on the ground as much as I want and swim as much as I want.  I guess I have to go slower for now, MD said to only add 5 minutes every week, up to 30 minutes 5 days a week, then stop...The pain from my knee is fresh in my mind so I will listen very carefully and revisit the elipitical at a later date!  Hope everybody is doing well.  Sherry

I gained 0.2 of a pound probably due to water weight gain from a knee injury which is significantly swollen.  My Doctor did finally talk me into a steriod injection in the knee, just 2 hours ago!  Hopefully I will be able to work out very soon.  It has been over 4 weeks of not working out, and I really am anxious to get back in to going to the gym.  Hope everybody is doing great and had a good weekend.

I am totally bummed right now since I have some unknown injury yo my right leg/knee/calf area and cannot work out.  I was working 5 days a week 45 minutes on the elipical machine and now I have been benched for 3 weeks because of pain and spasm in that leg.  My primary MD sent me for a doppler to make sure I didn't have a blood clot which thankfully wasn't a clot, but since I didn't have anything  "happen" to the leg I don't know what is wrong with the leg/knee/calf.  I am trying some alterative therapies before any type of injections etc.  But now of course I feel that I could be losing more if I could get in the GYM.  I will get past this too, just wish I knew what was wrong with my leg... 

I love Chili, it goes down well everytime and it full of protein, so a healthy choice.  I make mine with 94 % ground beef so is low in fat too.  This is going to be my go to food, especially on days like today that seems like everything I put in my mouth makes me nauseous or in pain.  I am 10 weeks out and really thought things would be a lot better, but I am finding every day is different.  Some days I think it would be better to just drink my nutrition, and others I am fine eating steak.  I am sure eventually I will figure this all out.  My losing is about 2.5 to 3 lbs per week, and I am fine with that (I think).  I know a lot of people on here are losing a lot faster, but my loss is slow and steady and i just have to remember we are all individuals.  My 2 month lab work came back and everything looks great!  That is a realistic snapshop that I must be on the right tract.  I never had high cholesterol before but it was never 94 before either!  I hope everyone out there is having a good evening and doing well, see ya'll later.

     Well I was 8 weeks last Thursday and was able to start taking my vitamins whole.  Woohoo!  Crushed iron, not so good!  I guess I am atypical since I have only loss 25 pounds since surgery.  I am trying to be okay with this amount, but really I am somewhat disappointed.  I am however losing inches since I can get into some 18/20, and most all 20's, and previously was in 24/26 or larger if it fit weird.  My bras are very ill fitting, guess somethings you can't skimp on!  I am working out 5 days a week normally, last week only 3 times since I had the stomach flu, that my granddaughters gave to me.  Not a wonderful time, usally I don't get the stomach flu easily and if I do there is usually no vomiting...well I have now made up for this!  

     I go back to the Doctor next Wednesday for my 2 month post op.  I will ask him why I am losing so slowly.  I have to be thankful I am not gaining and it is slowly coming off (however slow it may be.) 

     I will upload a picture or image as soon as possible (when I figure out how to cut my existing pics)  My daughter has been meaning to help me with this...lol.  Well, hope everyone is doing well and will talk soon.  Sherry

I am 7 weeks today and only 22 lbs down since surgery.  This is frustrating to say the least.  I am doing the right things and I know we all lose at different rates, but it is still a bummer to be going so slowly.  I am eating 800-1000 calories, with an occasional 1200 calories, and working out to expend 350-500 calories 5 days a week.  I am definetely losing inches because I started out 26-28 and now mostly 18-20 clothes fit.  But really, I want to have some really good weight loss.  It doesn't mathematically add up.  I should be dropping 3-4 lbs/wk by doing the math.  Well I see my MD in a couple weeks and will talk to him about all this but does anybody have any insight?