4 months

Sep 29, 2009

I was four months out yesterday from my surgery date.  My scale read 184 pounds which means the doctor's scale would have read 188 pounds.  That is a total of 86 pounds in4 months!  I am amazed at how quickly this has happened.  I did not think that the effort I am putting in with exercising and making sure that I am getting in my protein would have such a profound effect so quickly.  I am very pleased.

It is interesting that people are responding to me differently.  People at the office that I never really spoke to are now smiling at me and taking an interest in the weight loss.  After my conversations with them, I always have to laugh because being thinnner does make others look at you differently.  I never realized how much.  I ALWAYS tell people that it is not just the surgery that has gotten me to this point.  If I was not working out every day at the gym (40 minutes cardio and 20 minutes weight training), this effect would not be this drastic.  I firmly believe that.  It is a combination of everything that I am doing in my life that is getting me to this point.  I almost started crying in yoga the other night because I realized that I am starting to become comfortable with who I am in my own skin.  I always thought that I was ok with myself and who I was when I was larger.  Now, I realize that much of that was a myth.  I didn't have this level of confidence that is building in me today.  I didn't have the comfort in my own skin.  The transformation has not only been in my body but in my mind as well.  I feel good about myself and carry myself differently.  I noticed that I am not as moody with others and don't take things so personally at this point.  It makes all the difference in the world in regards to my confidence level.

If anyone is out there are reads this and they are debating the surgery, please take an honest look at yourself and your life and look at yourself realistically.  I don't necessarily wish I had done the surgery sooner.  I think that I needed all of the 39 years behind me for this to be this effective.  I needed the pain of those years (both physically and emotionally) to appreciate where I am today.

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