sandy M.

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I had forgotten how wonderful this site is.. I can't Believe I did not post after surgery. I had no complications once i came home there was a few while I was in the hospital. I never really had any dumping syndrome I never really had any food getting stuck..God healed me while in the hospital and I have been doing great.  My life has changed completely.  I will never forget how it felt the first time I got in the car and my stomach did not touch the steering wheel or how it felt to walk that first mile. I now go to the Ymca .. I love life this is the best decision I have ever made .

so i started visiting this website about a year ago..it really doesnt feel that long ago. when i started i was in such a hurry to get my surgery i did not want to wait at all and i was so frustrated that i had a 6 mth weight loss program i had to go through.  luckily i had already been going for about 3 mths when my insurance changed..i finished my weight loss program in jan and i was approved for my surgery in june..i had to have all my tests done before they would submit to the insurance company..now i am only 9 days away..i have been concerned that i was doing the wrong thing several times.  i mean even though i have been trying to get this done for 9 yrs and it is now happening i started to still doubt it...but not anymore.  this is what i want this is what i need..my life is not my own and it hasnt been for years..i no longer live i am no longer the person i feel i am inside..i want to not just live ...i want to live life..this surgery will be hard and i will have to change the things i do and dont do but isnt that the point...i want a change and to make a change i have to change..im still scared and im still worried about what kind of problems that could occur...but if i dont have the surgery i will be worried about other things and what other problems could occur...so i know this is right ..

tomorrow is the beginning.. i have felt so hopeless lately even though im almost 100% sure my surgery is going to happen..but that is over..i am determined to wake up tomorrow with a new outlook and to do the things i have to do to become ..me..