snippers
I have always pictured myself different than what the picture tells. I always see me as a roller coaster, sometimes I'm up and sometimes I'm down. Sometimes I'm narrow and wide, sometimes slow and fast. I am a 911 operator, and I deal with my emotions and other peoples everyday. Unfortunately when the phone rings it's never at a person's greatest moment. So I take all thoes feelings and deal with them with food.
Yes like many I was a chubby child. My parents were complete oposites, my father came from a heavyset family and my mother thin as a reed and could eat like a horse! So their children 2 had weight problems and 2 did not. I never really wanted to be a model or superstar, I just wanted to be normal and for the rest of my days I have spent on endless diets. I have tried them all except the grapefruit diet, only because I can't stand them! I have been thinking about WLS for more than 3 years, and due to a clause in my employer's policy,( they think it is cosmetic) the insurance company cannot pay for this insurance.
I have tried for the last 2 1/2 years unsuccessfully to get the weight off. I signed up for a seminar in June of this year, and talked myself out of it. I convinced myself if I could do this by myself...and started another diet. I went on vacation with my family and was so ashamed of myself, I was too big to go to the water park, all I really could do was sit under the cabana. I regreted no going to the seminar, so as soon as I got back I signed up. I started taking baby steps to change. Although I have given up alot of things some I am still struggling with.....But....come Dec.13th, 2010 I am determined to open the door for a new life!
