Surgery tomorrow

Jul 17, 2011

Wow, it seems like it has taken forever to get here and yet it also feels like no time at all. Full range of emotions and thoughts today. . . should I really do this?  Just because my doctors think it's the right thing for me doesn't mean it actually IS the right thing for me, does it?  The whole "you've lost over 35 pounds on your own, why don't you just keep doing what you're doing instead of something so drastic?" questions from friends/coworkers/family ar well meaning, but what it feels like is as if they are questioning my judgment/decision. Believe me, I question my decision every day. And I also know that this really is the right decision, the right choice at the right time. And for those who say that surgery is the "easy way out" - screw you; You have no clue how hard this is! 
So - what's left to do?  prepare. Change my sheets, clean the bathroom, pack my pjs, re-organize the linen closet, relax?, call my sister in Oregon who's moving to Hilo, HI next week, shower & use the Hibiclens prep, put on my anti-nausea patch, read some Dean Koontz, & sleep. . . & cuddle with my dogs!

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