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Well it has been a while, I am not as sick as before, by no means. I still have problems one in a while keeping it down.  I have not done any beef so you know chicken and turkey is is played out. I have a semi veg head.  that is the only thing I do not have a problem with.  I am down now to 255 and a size 20 to 22.  I  try not to look at the scale but every day there I am stepping on the scale to see if I can drop another couple pounds by the end of the week.  By the time the official day of summer is over I would like to be 236 that is a 100 pounds gone.  The one thing I have noticed is my arms are yuck.  So I have invested in the YMCA and I am off tomorrow to get this yuck under control.  I never really realized how big I was.  I am so grateful that I was able to get my second chance.  My husband has been very playful lately, he said that he has a new wife.  I must admit I am happy for the attention. Even the people in my neighborhood are asking me how skinny am I trying to get.  Me Skinny I have not heard that since I was 12 years old.  I just want my nice sex body back  So I can really shake up my husband when we go back to Aruba on our anniversary.  Well until the next time keep the faith and trust in GOD he will take you through all of your trials, he is there for you. For those of you that are still stuck and sitting on the fence  go ahead have the surgery,  Get your life back you will have a Little pain  but that goes away you will gain 10 years of life.  Well next time Be Blessed and Be Well Smooches  Love

Hello everyone I know it has been a while since I have written, but I have not been feeling up to writing about anything.  For the past four weeks now all I have been dong is throwing up.  On May 9Th I went to my Dr to find out what is wrong, he sent me to the radiologist to have an exam preformed where he would be able to see how I am taking in any liquids.  Now this crap taste like chalk and yes I threw that up as well.  What I found interesting was I could see where I felt the tightness in my chest.  Like I said the food does not make it down to what was left of my stomach.  So on Monday May 16 I go back to the hospital for another endoscopy.  I got on the scale and I gained two pounds WTF.   I don't know why I am just  so tired. I went to the gym last week and thought I would pass out.  I need protein but If nothing stays down but thin liquids I don't know what to do.  We will see what happens after Monday.  Be Blessed all  Love Star

I am so sick I  throw up everything and have not energy to even type. What Have I Done Now They are talking about some scar tissue, I need to get to my doctor fast. This is not good. I throw up everything. Right now I am making ginger tea to stop the nausea and the vomiting. This is not good at all.  My birthday is at the end of the week May 7Th and I refuse to be sick for my day. Just pray for me.  Love Star

Hello everyone its me Star.  Folks it has been a rough couple of weeks.  I have not been getting enough proteins in and I am weak and sick all of the time. I throw up at least one a day.  I go into dry heaves with anything. yogurt, the protein shake water you name it I have brought it back up.  My weight loss has been slow since post op. I have met with my doctor and the nutritionist and I was given an appointment for May 18 if I cannot keep down any food than I have to go in for an endoscopy to see what the problem is. I was give prescribed prevacid and it still does not help.  The only thing I can keep down is watermelon, and other soft fruit.  As soon as I eat anything I get the hiccups.  I can take large gulps of water that feels good.  The sugar free ice pops help I cant live without them.  I still have to take my vitamins and high blood pressure pills.  one of my pills was lowered to 10mg from 20mg happy about that.  I can noticed the difference in my stomach it has gone down from a mountain to a hill.  My clothes bag and not  because I brought anything new just getting smaller.  I am in the twozies now I have not been any where in the 2 since 2000.  I am glad that I did it I just want to see more weight off. I am hoping for another 20 to 40 by June 1.  I start the gym tomorrow walking on the treadmill and on the bike and next week I have to start the abs exercises.  Have to start on my Pam G profile.  Ha Ha. I must tell you I do miss eating like a regular person.  I wish I could keep food down. You know what I really miss  SALAD OMG I cant have salad until September, That is messed up.  I love Salad especially spinach with egg, bacon, tomato,  radishes, green onions, dried raisins, with tuna or grilled chicken and sweet and mild peppers.  with light dressing yummy yummy.  I am taking my vites so that my hair will not fall out and to keep my skin from looking like a zombie.  Pray for me everyone.  I can only do 4 to 6 ounces of the shake before I bring that up.  What is wrong with me.  My new name is Baby Throw-up. 

I am so glad that my Doctors appointment is this Wednesday the 13Th of April. I hope that he will start me on semi solid foods I am all shaked out. I have to remember that I have to take the liquid Vitamins I did not take them for two days and when I got up today I felt weak as hell.  I am now eating real fruit. I had about 35 seedless grapes, but I did not eat the skin.  I also had a shake. The only think I am able to keep down is veggies leafy veggies.  I had four townhouse crackers, and yes they were the best crackers I have ever eaten.  I can keep down Iced tea and hot tea. The tea that you make yourself not store brought.  I did notice that crystal light and the Walmart brand is so sweet.  I have be drinking herbal tea with equal. Tuna and Salmon is a problem and I know fried food are going to be a problem.  I was asked by one of my friends would I do this again and the answer is HELL YES are you crazy.  I just wish my banana was a little larger.  When I swallow I am in pain. I am learning how to take my time, and not to throw everything down my mouth and get up and go.  I am taking smaller bites and making it last longer.  The weight is coming off and I am glad. I hope by the time September comes I will have at least 90 to 100 pounds off.  That means I will still need to drop 85 pounds.  Yes I miss food and anyone who tells you that they do not miss taking a bite out of a cheeseburger with fried onions and mushrooms with bacon is lying.  I just know my burgers will have to be sliders and that I cannot have all of that stuff on it. Moderation LIFE STYLE CHANGE. Pacing myself eating like I have some sense.  I cant change what is in the past I can only control my future.  I need to get healthy and move forward.  Please pray for me it is very hard but with GODS Grace and Guidance I will be able to complete the mission.  Be Blessed all  Love

Well I last reported that I was taking the day off and I did just that.  I noticed that when I review another persons blog I thought that I too would steal some of the things that I will not miss about being fat. So far I have Fifteen things so I will begin with that

1. I will not miss going  to hunt for the big seat on the bus
2. I will not miss taking the elevator down one flight of stairs to go to the locker room in the gym ( a total of twenty steps)
3. I will not miss paying more money for bigger clothes
4. I will not miss not taking pictures with my friends in family ( I will be in the picture)
5. I will not miss the fat coat for the winter
6. I will not miss people thinking I am pregnant (So far I have had 20 kids for the twenty years I have been obese)
7. I will not miss family members telling me girl you sure have gotten big.
8. I will not miss not being able to cross my legs.  Have not done this in twenty five years
9. I Will not miss shopping in a men's store for a polo shirt for work
10 I will not miss wearing men's sizes
11 I will not miss being heavier than my husband  348 My husband is 200 at 6.4
12. I will not miss being able to see my feet because of my gutt
13 I will not miss that when I go out with my friends I am the jolly fat girl
14 I will not miss people thinking that because I am large that that I am stupid or uneducated.
15 I will not miss being referred to as Mama Klump 
16 I will not miss being passed over for jobs because of my weight
17 I will not miss co-workers referrer to me at Big Mama when someone ask them for a discription of me
18. I will not miss hating my body and not accepting the way I look
19 I will not miss this poor thinking about myself
20. I will not miss going out to dinner and not finishing everything on my plate . (just knowing that I do not have to finish everything and that I can take it home for another time is priceless.     BE Blessed Everyone Love Star

Hello everyone just taking the day off had some baby food stage three, with the meat inside.  I am so tired today All I want to do is sleep.  I really do not want any food, but I know I have to eat something. My brother said that we are learning how to eat again. So this will take some time. My first Dr.s appointment is on April 13 so I will see what he has to say.  It still hurts going down, some what but tonight's dinner stage three was not so bad.  Just as long as it is not chicken.  Good night everyone and for those of you having surgery on Monday Be Blessed  and know that GOD has you back.  This is a do over for us.  Good night

Well I am happy to announce that another seven pounds have dropped off.  I did something stupid yesterday That I will not do again. I ate two steak fries. Big Mistake I thought I was going to puke.  I just wanted to chew should not of did it. In this case My eyes were bigger than my belly.  However after that mistake I got a protein shake and ate that.  felt much better.   Another thing is anyone out there having a tenderness in the calf area. OMG I went to put some lotion on my calf's and I felt pain running down my legs like little pins sticking me all over in the front and the back of my legs.  I  do not regret this I just wonder how would it be when it is time to eat regular food again. I am afraid to eat now, and baby food is getting played out.  Some one who is a cook please give me some ideas for food.  I need veggies help

Enough with this pureed food!. I know that this is only day 9 but I am all out of suggestions on how to prepare food.  I am tired of Baby food, and I cannot tolerate the smell of chicken.  Well last night my sister and I had a baked sweet potato and the salmon.  The salmon was very easy going down, but we could not finish the meal so we will have it for lunch today.  Oh we just stepped on the scale since the hospital.  I lost seven pound since 3/21/11 Post-op Yeah Will someone please give me way to get through the pureed food drama. We are not getting enough protein.  Thanks Be Blessed and Well

Well it has been a week Post-Op today I feel great I am able to eat one serving of oatmeal and a yogurt.  For lunch I am having the protein shake with a banana, and for tonight's dinner I am going to have salmon and baked sweet potato.  and some pureed baby green beans. Now I know this sounds like a lot but trust me it will not be. My sister and I will split the palm sized piece of fish and everything else.  I am trying to keep up the proteins but I just do not have the appetite for any food.  I went to Walmart last night with my husband to pick up the basics; Wow I thought that I would pick up something crazy but I did not even attempt to do that.  I am waiting for my Nutritionist to call me so that we can discuss any other  foods to eat.  Right Now I cannot take the smell of chicken pureed, baked fried, or any other way.  My sister cannot take it either it is just the smell and the taste is yuck!   I also went to look for the stretch mark cream Merderma OMG it cost 40.00 without the coupon.  I heard that this stuff is good but man the price of beauty.  I still get the hick ups after anything I eat and sipping water has become less and less.  At this point I am down to  two cups of water per day. Not Good At All.  I am going to get on my stationary bike tomorrow but for now have a good day and a better tomorrow Peace and Blessings