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June 21, 2013

So it's almost time for my new surgery date...Just a few more days.  I can't believe it.  I'm excited but also nervous.  The outpouring of support from friends and family has meant so much.  All the prayers have helped tremendously.  I weighed this morning and I had lost an additional .6lbs.  It's a loss so I'm happy with it.  That brings my total weight loss since starting the pre-op diet to 15.6lbs.   A friend of ours stayed with us this week and I did great fixing food for him.  Some of the things (like the veggies) I didn't eat.  I also fixed him some homemade egg, bacon and cheese mcmuffins and I wasn't even tempted.  It didn't phase me.  I'm thankful for that.   I am ready for the new chapter in my life.

June 13, 2013

I weighed myself this morning and another 2.4lbs off for good!  I'm so happy!  That makes my total pre-op diet weight loss 15 pounds.  I'm very excited as my numbers drop.  My cravings for sweets have subsided some as I've been trying to drink more flavored water to take the edge and craving off. 

June 12, 2013

I finally got my new surgery date and time.  June 25th I'm to be at the hospital by 9:30am.  I'm SO ready.  I've been ready...Being on the pre-op diet for another two weeks is frustrating but I'm moving through it with my head high.  I have been craving sweets today but I haven't gave in.  I'm just trying to drink more flavored water to help satisfy those cravings.  They seem to help.  I think since I hadn't been drinking as much as I had been the last few days that maybe that's why I am craving the sweetness.  

I did get some variety of protein from the store the other day to help me to to feel so burnt out on it.  The beef jerky is really great to satisfy my "chewing" tendencies.  Variety is good but I will be glad when it's June 25th.  I haven't been able to got to water class this week since my husband's car isn't acting right.  Hopefully I can go next week.

Feeling pretty deflated.  God protected me today.  I got a call this morning that my surgery was canceled.  They said the operating room was deemed "unsafe" and they had to cancel all procedures today.  I was not ready for that phone call.  I just broke down and cried.  It's been emotionally taxing...all this weekend I've been so anxious and nervous and I've cleaned the house, packed and scrubbed...I've done the "all clear liquid" diet the day before and I honestly thought when the phone rang this morning that they would be calling to have me come in earlier. 

I know it's for the best and the angels are watching over me....it's still hard nonetheless.  But I'm holding my head high and will keep going.

I'm very anxious as the time is quickly ticking away to Surgery day.  At the same time, I'm also feeling like the days are dragging.  I have so much to do and yet I feel like I've not had time to do the things I need to do.  I am racking my brain trying to make sure I pack everything for my surgery and what I need to leave out at my Mom's for when I come to her house after surgery.  I've done really well abiding by the pre-op diet rules.  It tells me I can do this and I'll be fine. 

Yesterday the surgeon's office called to push my arrival time back from 11:30 to 2:30.  Ugh!  As if I'm not stressing enough and ready to get this done.  Sunday I go on a all clear liquid diet and then nothing to eat or drink after midnight.  I will take my two blood pressure meds (one in the morning and one in around 12ish) with a sip of water but that's it.  I have had so much support and encouragement from various folks at work.  It means so much.  Having support not only in my home, and family life but in my work life, from friends, and my church family means the world to me. 

I keep reading more of the posts folks have made from the Gastric Sleeve Facebook pages I'm members of.  Reading what other folks are experiencing and how they cope helps prepare myself for what's going on and getting ready to happen.  I'm going to do fantastic.  I will keep my head up and keep focused on the future.

I couldn't help it and had to weigh this morning...I've lost another 2.4 pounds!!!!  12.6 total since Monday, May 27th!  I am so happy.  I fixed a little less than a half a cup of egg beaters this morning, 3 pieces of turkey bacon and a turkey dog (from last night).  I am using a salad plate for all my meals which is good.  I'm heading to a cookout in a bit.  I was worried about it before my diet started but I'm confident that I can handle it.  I have just a little over one week before my surgery and I know I can do this.  I'm doing it already and I am so happy.  I will never be in the 400's again. 

I called my Mamaw this morning as soon as I weighed (Momma was asleep so I couldn't wake her up) and she was so happy and surprised I think that I lost that much more since Thursday afternoon.  I'm on my way!!!!

Good Morning!  For breakfast this morning I made about a half a cup of egg beaters with rosemary and black pepper.  Adding the rosemary gave it a great flavor.  I also had a piece of string cheese.  I've not used salt in weeks and feel great about it.  My Mamaw called me this morning to tell me again how proud she is of me.  It means the world to me when I hear my family is proud of me.  I'm going to keep going strong!  I can win this battle.

Lunchtime - 3 turkey dogs and a piece of string cheese.  I think the 3 was too much.  Next time I'll try two.  That's awesome though that eating 3 turkey dogs with nothing on them and no breading and a piece of string cheese has me full.  I've not even had my surgery yet but it makes me feel good that I'm full sooner than I used to be.

Finally got my scale today to weigh myself and compare with the last time I went to the doctor.  I lost 10.2 pounds!!!  I am so excited!  I cannot believe it!  Today I had a protein shake for breakfast, small helping of walnuts, 2 string cheese and a half a cup of egg beaters with black pepper.  I plan to have a piece of turkey smoked sausage in a bit.

I haven't been able to go to swim class the last two days due to the fact I'm severely sunburned.  I'm afraid if I go out in the sun anymore for the moment that I'll be blistered badly.

I'm doing really well fighting off the hunger when it hits sometimes.  My body is used to eating so much that it's not used to the change.  That's okay.  I know I'm not starving.  I know I'm eating when I want to.  I just choose not to eat every single time my belly grumbles.  I'm doing this.  I'm getting there...I am so ready to keep going!

Today was a bit more challenging at some times.  I waited till 9:30 am to have my protein shake.  But I started to get a headache later on.  I decided to take some Tylenol.  Thankfully, it helped.  I had my lunch shake around 3pm again.  I had moments where I felt the hunger pangs...where I wanted something to eat.  To forget the pangs, I kept working.  I thought about going to get a piece of string cheese from the fridge but then I didn't want to eat it.  I wanted to keep going and not think about it. 

I had my first water aerobics class outside at the big pool today.  It's my second summer at the outdoor pool.  I worked hard the entire time pushing and pushing myself.  Everytime I got tired, I just tried to keep reminding myself that the bigger picture is so worth it.  Keep going.  Keep going.

This evening after class I came home and was hungry...no headache thank goodness.  I re-read a part of my manual about we can eat certain things in addition to or in place of protein shakes.  Meat, Cheese, Eggs, Nuts, etc.  I needed something to help me with the hunger.  I called my Mom and talked to her about it.  I felt bad for wanting something and thinking of fixing something...but Mom reminded me I've read this manual, I know I can have it...it's okay to have it.

So I took some fat free cooking spray and sprayed the pan, took some raw turkey burger and added Italian Seasoning Spice. I cut off a couple segments of mozzarella cheese and put ontop the burgers.  I slowly ate it, letting everything have time to get to where it needs to go.  I can do this...another day down...