Sunshine1973
I STARTED NOTICING I WAS FATTER THAN THE OTHER KIDS AT ABOUT AGE SIX. MY PARENTS HAD DIVORCED, AND SHE HAD REMARRIED. THE ABUSE, (EMOTIONAL, PHYSICAL AND SEXUAL) BEGAN ALMOST IMMEDIATELY. IN SECOND GRADE I WEIGHED82 POUNDS. IN FOURTH GRADE I WEIGHED 102. I WAS WEARING MY MOTHERS CLOTHES BY THEN AND WAS BEING PUNISHED FOR THE WEIGHT GAIN. MY STEP DAD HATED FAT GIRLS AND IF IT WOULD MAKE HIM LEAVE ME ALONE I THOUGHT IT WAS WORTH IT. I FINALLY MADE IT KNOWN TO MY MOTHER THAT HE WAS DOING STUFF,BUT I THINK SHE KNEW ALREADY BUT DIDN'T WANT TO BE ALONE. THEY DIVORCED FOR THE SECOND TIME MY FIFTH GRADE YEAR, AND SHE REMARRIED AGAIN THE NEXT YEAR TO A GREAT GUY, BUT I WAS ALREADY LEARY IF MEN AND JUST CONTINUED TO EAT. I WEIGHED 199 ON THE LAST DAY OF MY EIGHTH GRADE YEAR. I WEIGHED 235 ON MY FIRST WEDDING DAY WHEN I WAS 18. I WEIGHED 287 AT THE BIRTH OF MY FIRST CHILD AT AGE 22. I LOST 60 LBS. THEN GOT PREGNANT WITH MY SECOND CHILD. AT HIS BIRTH I WEIGHED 290 AT AGE 24. OVER THE YEARS I YO-YO'D AND NOW I WEIGH ABOUT 340, AT AGE 34.5. I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO BEING ABLE TO BE A TEAM MOM, WITHOUT THINKING "DO WE ALWAYS HAVE TO PLAY IN THE BACK FIELD?" BECAUSE IT HURTS ME TO WALK!
