suzannem
Worrying and Waiting
Oct 13, 2007
Gee I just posted to the main board asking for support. I got the ok for time off for surgery from work, 3 or 4 weeks, just waiting on the ins co to approve or not and soon because I have to have the surgery by the end of the year before my company changes insurance companies and then I'd have a six month long wait with a supervised diet and nutrition classes...oh please God, if a prayer of this type isn't way out of line and too presumptious, I know you have so many more important things to take care of, but if stuff like this figures into you daily list of prayers to look at, won't you consider mine?
Went to see my oncologist this week and I weigh 2 pound less than I did this time last year. 245 now. What a whale. I miss my husband and I'm lonely and 6 months after I have the surgery I'm moving to Austin to be near my son and sister. I may be eating soup daily and not turning on the a.c. to save money but I'm moving near my family. I know no one here and have no support system here; my friends all live far and wide and I talk to them daily but need close friends. As it is, I guess I'll be taking a taxi home from the hospital, have done that before with my ER visit when I had a breast abscess. The er doc missed it and sent me home with a " virus ' = the next day I went into the hospital for two weeks with a horrible breast abscess and raging infection.
I'm so tired of being alone, I'm always alone and I hate it. I'm so shy that it is hard for me to make friends and I work in Dallas and live in Tyler so I don't get to meet anyone here. I tried church and all that but being gone 3 days/nights a week leaves little time to join or volunteer. And I feel so awkward being 55 and everyone on the board, except for the over 50 group of course, seems to be in their 20's and 30's. I feel like I'm an old shoe to them and I guess I'm just down on myself today. I worked all night last night and go back to dallas on Monday for 3 days.
Enough of all this. I'll call the ins co first thing Monday morning and h ope for the best. Thank you for everyone who read this and listened. It means the world to a lonely lady to be listened to. Trust me, I mean it!
Went to see my oncologist this week and I weigh 2 pound less than I did this time last year. 245 now. What a whale. I miss my husband and I'm lonely and 6 months after I have the surgery I'm moving to Austin to be near my son and sister. I may be eating soup daily and not turning on the a.c. to save money but I'm moving near my family. I know no one here and have no support system here; my friends all live far and wide and I talk to them daily but need close friends. As it is, I guess I'll be taking a taxi home from the hospital, have done that before with my ER visit when I had a breast abscess. The er doc missed it and sent me home with a " virus ' = the next day I went into the hospital for two weeks with a horrible breast abscess and raging infection.
I'm so tired of being alone, I'm always alone and I hate it. I'm so shy that it is hard for me to make friends and I work in Dallas and live in Tyler so I don't get to meet anyone here. I tried church and all that but being gone 3 days/nights a week leaves little time to join or volunteer. And I feel so awkward being 55 and everyone on the board, except for the over 50 group of course, seems to be in their 20's and 30's. I feel like I'm an old shoe to them and I guess I'm just down on myself today. I worked all night last night and go back to dallas on Monday for 3 days.
Enough of all this. I'll call the ins co first thing Monday morning and h ope for the best. Thank you for everyone who read this and listened. It means the world to a lonely lady to be listened to. Trust me, I mean it!
