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my story is like everyone elses story.....I was fat. Not all my life but from about 20 years old and on. As a kid I might have been maybe 10 pounds bigger than most girls my age....no big deal.
I got married at 18 and had my daughter at 19....had her on Tuesday come home on Thursday and when I walked in my husband at the time had some really nice diet pills and diet food on the table for me. What a jerk. Through out my pregnancy he called me fatty and so on. He always had an issue with how I looked. I could not go to check my mail unless my hair and makeup were perfect. We divorced within 3 long years.
So I remarried and life was ok...ups and downs....steadily gained weight after my son was born....got bigger...and bigger. Got to 233 pounds on my 5ft tall frame.......finally decided to go with surgery after many failed attemps at diets. Guess you could say I gave up.
Had surgery on July 30-2001 at Lahey Clinic in Burlington Massachusetts. Have not had any real issues other than I hate food, hate water and hate exercise. I weigh 147. Have been down to 133 but it was short lived. Got up to 153 last year.
I am having twins on March 5, 2007.........or as most of you refer to them as breast implants. I have these really ugly saggy things now....kind of reminds me of cow udders...hey dont milk me I am a people.
Anyhow, here I am.......the two pics are of me and my daughter and her friend....I am in the hat and my daughter is in the brown top.
Ok fast forward to March 15-2007......I got the new boobs.....36D. I am happy so far...surgeon says I am progressing fine with the healing. I see him again on 20-Mar-2007. The surgery went well no comps...and recovery has been ok. I did not lay around and recoup like I was told. I am a mom, and thats hard to do. I came back to work at one week post op and only worked one day and then had a serious bought of exhaustion and stayed home an extra day and actually slept half the day. I am doing better just really tired.
My new boobs are 213cc's and 265cc's silicone. McGhan style 15 implants. I financed 6000.00 and paid 2470.00 cash the day of surgery. My dr is Ronald J Johnson of Wolf River Plastic Surgery, Germantown TN. Everyone in his office is very professional and compassionate. Thank you.....I am a new person once again.
well here i am again...02-may-2008....7 weeks ago today I joined a gym and have a personal trainer. I weighed 170 the day I walked in.....thats a 33 pound regain since my initial 100 loss. Today....I am at 155.5. My boobs are great and have no regrets on having that surgery done as well. I am considering a tummy tuck in 3 years. That gives my trainer and I three years to work on my abs and for me to pay off my boob job.
i have had many ups and downs over the last few years and turned back to my trusty old friend food......I did not follow the rules of the pouch and re-gained the weight. I have stopped that process....I am taking control once again. It is never too late to get back on track.
once again no good news to report.....I stopped going to the gym in Sept 08 and had a touch up on my plastic surgery. No big deal just a lift because they settled lower than we wanted. So in March 09 I went back to the gym and worked out until June....lost 5 pounds maybe. Today I am back up to the 170-175 mark....regain....failure....no hope....not happy.
I have been diagnosed with hyopglycemia and also hypothyroid. I have an ulcer and Gerd. I dont regret my RNY just regret that I never had any follow up other than my 6 weeks out. I moved and was never seen again. I have been doing this on my own. I dont have a clue what I should have been eating or what amounts.
I want to be a personal trainer. I am enrolled in two online classes. I will finish one this week Sept 25-09 at the latest. I wish to take my ASCM but how can I train anyone when I am a failure in RNY? Makes no sense why I am still persuing it. I am out a grand on two classes and the ACSM alone will be that or more. I guess maybe I can still take it but never publically train anyone until I am fit and have my issues under control.
This weekend, 9-26-09 I will walk in the WALK FROM OBESITY for the 2nd year. It is in Little Rock, AR. I am ashamed to go because I have regained.
Yesterday 9-20-09 was week 4 of not having a Coke. I never really could give them up after my RNY. Yes I know that is part of my problem. I did cut back in a drastic way from 12-24 cans prior to surgery to 1 a day. How do I feel? Like shit....a long time friend is missing from my daily routine, that comfort zone is gone. I am getting by tho. I quit them cold turkey....no switching to Pepsi or switching to Diet. I just stopped.
I did not get my mini cooper but did just go get a dodge stratus 2 door coup color red....vroom vroom. I am happy with my implants and lift and feel more like a woman than a freak with breasts that touched my belly button.
Where do I go from here? I dont know.....forward for one thing. I have to get back on track. I have to take control. I just dont know where to start and how. I guess admitting I have failed is one way. Time to make a change..........
