tashahoward934
I'm 28 years old. I have always been heavy but tall. Honestly my weight has been a concern of mine since I was young. I never felt comfortable around people even though I am very outspoken. I have never really been ashamed of myself, but very reluctant to do things I enjoyed like playing sports in high school. I remember being ridiculed at a volleyball game and that was the end of sports for me. But ten years later, my self-esteem is much better. I am comfortable with myself because I learned how to compliment my size. "You wear your weight well", I know we are all to familiar with that saying right. But anyway, I have gained control of my feelings about my looks and all though I am ready to be smaller, it was primarily for health reasons. Now dont get me wrong as soon as I get sexy I am going to the beach in a tank top! LOL... But really, my parents are heavy and they have been through a lot dealing with their health. My father's knees are killing him, and mom is on diaylsis, maybe not due to her weight, but how can we be sure. My family's medical history is not the greatest and I need as much of a fighting chance as possible, so this weight has got to go ...
05/22/06
Well guys its almost here! I go for my pre-op at Vista Medical Center tomorrow. I have informed my employer I will be gone for at least 2 wks and I am ready to get it going. Since the last time I updated, I have probably gained about 20 lbs., but I have lost about 10 of those so far. I am nervous and excited all at once. I am going pajama shopping tomorrow for my hospital stay. This is the first time I have been "allowed" to buy clothing in 4 months. This surgery has really put a damper on my shopping... I'll let you know how my pre-op went tomorrow...
05/23/06
Today I went for my hospital pre-op. My physican changed the hospital to Vista Medical Center. I am not sure why, but I will roll with it. I arrived at Vista at 9:15 for my scheduled 9:30 appointment. Got there and was sent to the admissions desk, unfortunately for me the desk was unmanned and I was alittle antsy, so I went to the nearest desk and asked was I in the right location. Well, she sent me back to the receptionist desk who sent me to admissions in the first place. Ok, so now I am starting to have my doubts. But I am remaining calm, got to the other desk and was told to see the charge nurse, Beverly. Went into Beverly's office, only to be told I needed to go back to admissions!!! OMG, this is starting to be scary. But as I was talking to Beverly, I realized a friend of the family works at Vista, and she offered to take me back to admissions. That made me feel a lot better, knowing if I had a problem I could call on her to protect me. Hopefully :). Well I got back to admissions and the nurse was back, he explained why the desk was unmanned and apologized. Needless to say, I was just a little worried about my care. But after that incident everything went well. I signed two tons of papers, they took blood and a urine sample, and I had another chest x-ray and ekg. Ms. Beverly explained the process the day of surgery and she gave me some of her experiences. she also had the surgery with Dr. Jay. After I talked to her I really do feel better about June 5. Honestly I am excited, and I can't wait to start my new life as a loser! I will write again, the night before surgery.
June 4, 2006
The day is finally here. I have been waiting on this day for over half my life. Today is the day before I start my new life as a loser!! I went in today for my last blood work and to practice the spirometer. I think I am ready, matter of fact I know I am ready. Thank you to everybody who has sent me love and prayer. I really do appreciate all of the wishes. I will write again as soon as I am able too... Thanks again!!!!
June 28, 2006
Hello all. I am finally feeling good enough to get on my profile. I am doing fine I believe. Emotionally I dont think I am doing ok. I have crying spells sometimes and have no idea why. Then I am starting soft solids and I am having some problems with tuna. I cant seem to get it down. Now the good news, I went to the doctor last Thursday and I have lost 27 lbs. My scars are healing and I am back at work. If I can get my mind to catch up with the rest of my body, I will be ok.
November 4, 2006
Hello folks!!! Yes it has been almost 6 months since my last post, but nothing much has happened. Well I have an Upper GI in August. I could not eat much of anything, which is probably why I have been so successful these last months. Once I was "opened" I could eat like a horse. I'm sure I am exaggerating, but thats what I felt like. Today I stepped on the scale and I am under 250!!! I have made it too the century club. Outside of my clothes all falling off of me, I cant tell a difference. My people think I am crazy but I still feel large. Maybe when I get to 200 I will see a difference. Ok take care until next time!!!
December 29, 2006
I just stopped in to say Happy Holiday's to all my OH friends. I do hope your 2007 will be everything you have ever dreamed it could be. I am glad to announce according to OH, I have hit my target weight, and only in six months!!!!! This is great.
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