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The hospital called me back today regarding my message that I left on their machine about me wanting some information about weight loss surgery. The lady was so nice on the phone, and made me feel so comfortable talking to her. Especially with subject matter that I normally am not comfortable talking to alot of people about.  She said that so far based on the information that I have given her, I pretty much qualify for gastric bypass surgery. The good thing is that in order to be able to have the surgery, I only have to lose 5 percent of my body weight on my own....which is only like 20 pounds.  Dosent sound too hard. I'll just have to really push myself and not let my will power get the best of me and be tough when it comes to giving in. I just cant do it at this point. I want this surgery to happen so bad in the worse kind of way.
I did talk to my family that I am considering the surgery. So far everyone is very supportive of my decision.  But, I really wasnt concerned that I would get any less of an answer than what I did, either.  They are good like that. Im blessed with a wonderful family like that. And I know that if and when the surgery goes thru that they will be fully supportive of diet changes and eat healthy along with me, too just so it wouldnt make it overly hard on me.
So I really feel like I made a big step today with getting the phone call and talking about my goals even tho its so early in the game.  Im even already pre-registered to come to the information session.  It is also one of the pre-requisites for surgery consequently.  Ive been working on the health questionnaires tonight. 
I dont think the ball is moving too far at this point.......    but im thankful that the ball has at least been budged from its original inactive state. I think from here on out, the only way to go is UP!  *smiles*       *~*knows shes doing the right thing for once for herself*~*

I have been overweight as long as I can remember. Even all the way back in high school.  Very sad.  I remember so-called "friends" from school always saying really obnoxious things day after day after day. They would say things that even I cant repeat today. Simply because they are embarassing to say....but also because most of things that were said....were true.  I was overweight. I was not able to wear the same sort of cute in style clothing that the rest of the kids my age were able to wear. And yes, I looked like I could have been pregnant. 
Ever since school I have battled and battled to lose weight. So many different ways that I have tried. Nearly all of them, I think.  Weight watchers, slim fast, weight loss drugs that you can buy over the counter, special juices, special teas for losing weight.  And maybe they helped a little bit at first.....but it always came back........and then some.
I am so done with being over-weight. Im sick of it.  Im not only sick of it....but it is making me sick as well.   And today was my turning point, I think.  One of my friends came to visit today for a little while.  And when I opened the door to invite her into the house, I didnt even recognize who she was.  She looked so different.......so terrific. And so healthy and happy and confident.  I immediately thought to myself....Ive got to get busy and find out how this can happen for me. I want this. 
So here I am.  Im only beginning, mind you. But I gotta do this. What have I got to lose?   Alot of weight. Thats what :)  And I am so ready for it. Im ready for the rest of my life to begin.  Im ready to add many more years to my life instead of taking years away. I am ready to feel good again. Im ready to reduce my risk of heart disease and injury.  And most of all, I'm ready to be able to get up and move freely without getting out of breath and to be able to feel attractive again.