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Well i have made it through the holidays (Thanksgiving and Christmas)  and surprisingly i did very well.  I didn't overeat and I only wanted minimal sweets.  Yay!.   So it is after Christmas and I cleaned out my closet again and got rid of the clothes I can no longer wear and look good due to sagginess.   A trip to Goodwill was much needed.  I went in looking for size 10 dress slacks.  They didn't have but a few 10 that i would wear, so i tried an 8.  OMG it was loose, so I tried some 6's.  I could wear some of them too.  I am so ecstatic about that, I would've been really mad if I would've just bought 10s and not tried them on until I got home and they would've been big in no time.  I bought 8's and 1 pair of 6's.  I still am in aww about that.  I can't wait for summer to get here now.  Well maybe I can since my body isn't so pretty under the clothing but I sure am working hard to do what i can do to help it out.  I am starting to see some ab muscles( didn't even know I could have a formed ab)  My mom even noticed them when i was trying on a shirts out of my closet to see how much longer i could get out of them.   Eddie is doing well with the loss, however I worry he isn't focused on changing his habits that helped him be obese to begin with.  I am hoping it is just he holidays and he will get it otherwise he went through a major surgery only to fail.   Just wanted to drop a few lines hear to track my journey.  Oh yeah I took new pictures and to compare the before with now, WOW.  I didn't see myself as that big before, it doesn't even look like me.   I love my RNY, and pray I can continue to be successful on my own.  I am working very hard to make the right choices and limit anything that could do damage.   I eat what I want but in small quantities and I am satisfied.  Ok for real I am gone now.

4/14/2009
I got through Easter or as i called it  "The Last Supper".   Ready to begin my liquids and still working on getting off the Diet Dr Pepper.  I have told many people and have recieved some interesting responses.  I am so excited the nervousness is gone right now I have so much to focus on to get ready. 

4/23/2009
I started the 2 week pre liquid diet yesterday.  Wasn't bad until late in the day when the headache hit me and it was a bad one.  Went to bed with it got up with it, tylenol wasn't helping.   Vomited this morning from the headache I believe.  No liquid tastes good today.  I had some crystal light energy to get a little caffiene OMG so sweet.  I made myself choke it down.  I tried some vanilla protien with OJ thinking I would have a dreamsicle.  Nope that was nasty however my daughter liked the taste of it.  As mine sat in the cup holder she so kindly pointed out I wasn't drinking mine.   So I had to force it down.  It's about lunch time so i will try a slim fast or and advantedge low carb drink and see how i do.   I just wanted to keep this up so i can look back and see what I have made it through so far.

5/5/2009
Oh yes I did it .  Tomorrow is surgery day and I have successfully made it through towe weeks on liquids.  I did have one cheat.  I ate a small chicken breast on day 3 .  My husband grilled and I just couldn't take the smell.  But then I was right back on the wagon.  I proved to myself   this past weekend that I can do this.   A group of Parents went to Cheeseburger In Paradise after a cheerleading comp over the weekend.  And yes I went and sat with Chili Broth while everyone ate delicous looking burgers and sweet potato chips with me.  I drank lots of water but I did it and felt really good about it after the fact.  Now when I got to the hotel I quickly made some more soup to get rid of the hunger that built up.  They all know what I am getting ready to go through and supported me 100% they really didn't say how good their food was, but I could tell.  I am still extremely excited about the new life that I am about to get.  I have also found out that I have a couple of other family members that have had the surgery int he past that I wasn't aware of.   Yeah more support.  Talk to you soon after surgery.

6/16/2009
Ok so i am guilty of not writing since surgery.  It has been a trip so far.   Surgery went off without any issues what so ever.  I am told it only took 45 minutes by my family.  Dr was pleasantly pleased with my recovery.  I am currently down 36lbs.  Woohoo!   Struggling with Protein shakes after surgery so I have been doing the protein shots from GNC to make sure I get them in.  However not quite the recommended amount.  Ihave made myself a promise to make sure I am getting it in going forward.  I came back to work May 26th and was doing well at first getting my excercise in.  Recently I am finding it hard to get up and leave to go excercise a bit.  Way to busy so I am trying to get myself back to the excercise as I know it is important in my new life.  I go back to the NUT tomorrow and hoping to get to some real food.  Oh I can't wait.  Mushy is so Mushy.  Eggs were my friend for a while however since last week I can't eat them with out them coming right back up.  YUCK!  However I will keep trying again and again to for a while in hopes some day i can eat eggs again.   I miss my Diet Dr Pepper the most and I crave it daily.   Oh how i want one just to sip on.  I see differences daily in myself in the mirror in fact this morning i hardly knew who I was when I turned and looked int he mirror.  My shirt was loose in the arms.  Now that is progress I have had big arms forever.   People at work remind me each day that I am changing they are watching me melt away.   I know i just glow.  

6/26/2009
Wow this week has been something.  The scale isn't really moving however i have had more compliments this week than ever.  I told everyone so it is no secret what I have done and what it is doing for me.  I struggle with just saying thank you, I was so used to going UGH when someone would compliment me in the past.  Getting close to needing some new clothes.  I hate to have things just hanging off of me.   I can't wait to hear what my Mom says hasn't seen me in about a month.  She was here for hte surgery and a couple of weeks after.  Just wanted to jot down a few thoughts going through my head today.  I truly love my tool and intend to  use it to its full ability.  I would like to hit 45lbs gone by July 4th, not sure if that will happen or not, but I am sure going to give it my best. 

7/19/2009
Ok so it took me a little longer than the 4th to hit the 45lb loss.   But Hey I did it and I even got into a size 14 dress and some slacks for work.  That was a huge wow for me.  I haven't been in a size 14 in 20 plus years.   I am very excited about that.   I am looking forward to going to a wedding next week and here what people have to say.  I know that is pretty vane huh?  Oh well just beginning to  like getting the compliments and be able to say thank you vs UGH.   I am 182 today , wow that is hard to beleive I am getting close to being in the 170's,  I am so excited.  Maybe by vacation time in August I will be there.  My daughter who is nine told me the other day that I was beginning to look like I am 18 again?  Wow coming from a 9yr old that is the greatest compliment ever.  She is visiting her NANA this week and told my best friend that as well.  I told her before long we would be sharing clothes cause I am getting smaller and she is getting bigger.   I was careful to explain that she is supposed to be getting bigger at this bpoint because she is growing up.  I don't want her to get the wrong message.   Anyway just wante to post I still can't get over I fit in a size 14.  OMG!

8/28/2009
Ok so I am at a 53lb loss now and feeling great.  I went for my follow up and my Dr was so happy for me and said I was ahead of schedule.  That was good for me, being a ligtweight I felt like i was losing slower than others.  Guess not.  Labs looked good.  Took a week long vacation at the beach and caved to some temptations and felt like crap.  Ate to  much one morning and got sick as a dog.  I am back on track now.  I was scared that I might have stretched my pouch but I guess not it seems to be working normally again.  Just wanted to jot a few things down.  Oh and while on vacation I had a few drinks felt pretty tipsy right away so I won't be doing that too much. 

10/19/2009
Well lets see,  things are going well  I am down 69 pounds.   I could kick myself for not measuring  before the surgery so i could see the difference in measurements now.  I know it is huge.  I continue to have lots of support and I feel things are normal, well on most days I feel just like anyone else.  I have found some great excercise to do that I don't get bored with and I love it.  My daughter participates with me on Saturday mornings in a Hit It class (dance and kick boxing combined).  I live in Belmont NC and there is a Dance group that does dance classes for excercise they call it Dance out (not workout)  this is great for those of us that appear to be allergic to work outs.   I love to dance and always have so this doesn't seem like work to me.   We have a blast and just keep moving.  The motto is if you are moving you are doing it right.  So ifyou are in the Charlotte Gastonia or Concord area look up Queen City Dancing Queen and check out a class or two.  You can tell them i sent you.  They have a website Queencitydancingqueen.com check it out. and have fun with your excercise. I started with 1 night and am up to 3-5 nights depending on what I have going on during the week.  Class is an hour , but it goes by fast and you work up a sweat.  What else???   Oh well the wrinkles are starting to show since I don't have as much fat to fill them out now.  That part sucks but I will take a few wrinkles over fat and unhealthy.   I am extremely cold now, don't know what I am going to do when it gets really cold out.  It is only in the 60s and i am freezing.  I still battle with sweets but am learning how to be satisfied with a small amount not 5 servings.  Loving my new life and feeling sexy for the first time in years.

11/16/2009
Ok so I just had my 6mth follow up and I have lost 68% of my weight, 73 lbs.  My Ferratin levels are 116, however my calcium was a little low.  Double up on the calcium and hopefully that will fix the issue.  Otherwise I feel great.  I am a little concerned about the upcoming Holidays but I am sure I will get through it.   My husband is scheduled to have surgery on November 18th so we are looking forward to his new life and journey as well.  I am praying that during the Holidays I will be able to make the right decisions and not overload on all my favorites sweets.  I do have those weak moments you know. 

11/23/2009
Well my husband has now joined me on this fabulous journey.  I hope that he has the success that I have, I believe he will.  I don't remember the day of surgery to be as painful as he claims it was, but maybe i just let the pain medicine do its job vs trying to prove I could take it.  I believe that is what he is trying to do now prove he can out do me when it come to recovery.  I carried water and my meals with me for the most part.  I did go out and pick up some Wendy's chili for dinner the night he had his surgery.