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 I had gastric bypass on August 16.  Things did not go as plan needless to say.  Four days after surgery I developed a severe infection Sepsis.  I ended up in the hospital for 3 weeks.  I have been having trouble eating.  I keep trying but somethings cause me to dry heaves.  My husband has been trying for 4 weeks to help me but today after he fixed me some eggs with gravy he lost it because I could not eat it.  I do not know what to do.  I have tried to get my family to see it from my stand point because it is creating stress for me because I am very frustrated because I cannot eat.  I know the whole thing has put a lot of stress on him but I do not think he understands that I am having a hard time myself.  I had to learn how to walk again which was not easy.  There are days I just want to give up.  If any of you had any problems eating what did you do?

Thanks for your help.

Teresa.

Well I start my pre-op diet this coming Tuesday.  I have brought my protein shakes and planning my evening meals.  I am so worried that I will let my hunger get the best of me but I am going to say a prayer every morning and try and keep busy from the time my feet hit the floor until they jump in bed.  I CAN do this I have just got to stay focus. 

I went to my first doctor's appointment and set my surgery date.  I will be having gastric bypass surgery on August 16.  I have mixed emotions at the present.  I am so excited about getting the weight off and for all the new things I will be doing.  However my nerves set in when I get to trying to figure out what I can or cannot eat.  The emotion part of the this journey is as the doctors said I will be losing a friend.  He is so right.  I am emotional eater so I know I have got to make a lot of changes.  I have been working real hard to cut sugar out of my diet because that is one of my trigger foods. It has been a slow process but I am doing it.  I am also going through the turmoil of failing.  I have been on so many diets and what if I fail.  I desire this so much.  I do not know if any of you had any of these feelings if you have let me know how you dealt with them.  I am going to need all the help I can get.  My husband and daughter support me so much but what if I let them down.  I feel that I am putting so much stress on myself that I not be happy.  I am just ready to live and make the changes in my life to enjoy it.  I am so tired of setting on the sidelines.  Well I have wrote enough at the present just setting and thinking.

Well I got my phone call for approval.  I am excited and nervous all wrapped up one one.  I will meet  with my doctor on July 6 to discuss and schedule my procedure.  I sometimes feel that I am going to fail because I have so many times before.  I do not want to let anyone down especially myself.  I want this so badly.  I enjoy when I work out.  I feel that I am making an accomplishment and I know I am going to feel so much better after surgery.  For so many years I have been unhappy because of my weight.  So many things I want to do that I could not do because of my size.  After surgery I can no longer use the reasoning with myself I am too big to do that.   Well I will close now.  I hope to post pictures soon.  

Teresa

 Well I finished my program to finally send for insurance approval.  As I step on the scale I just knew that the scale was going to be so disappointing.  Boy was I wrong.  I think my mouth hit the floor.  I stepped on the scale and just stared at the numbers I had lost 9 lbs in 12 weeks.  I informed the exercise physiologist that his scales were broke.  He grinned and said they were the same scales they used at the beginning of the program.  As of the today I have lost 47 lbs and I feel GREAT.  The amazing thing is that this is before surgery and I can only image the lbs dropping off after my WLS.  I know I cannot stop now.  I will be getting dressed and skipping all the way to the gym.  Watch out elliptical here I come.