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I think it's been a while since I threw a real post here.

As of today I hover somewhere around 208. With quitting my job in April, and moving from Metro Detroit to Jeff City, there was 2.5 months where I really just sat around the house. I wasn't doing massage (as I'm not licensed in Missouri) and was unemployed. Admittedly I was very homesick. But who wouldn't miss ICHQ all all the wonderful people there?? I watched my weight go up and down with my lack of activity, and sudden spurts of "OMG I HAVE TO DO SOMETTTHHHIIIING"

Job hunting was depressing, and I found myself going back to food for comfort. Ice cream and chocolate, have always been my downfall. They continue to be.

So, since my 101 pound mark, at 10.5 months, I've only lost 2 additional pounds. I passed my one year mark on 7/20/10. 103 pound loss total, at one year. It's amazing what a year can do, and I'm proud of that accomplishment. I'm finding that my size 14 jeans are getting loose now, and I cannot wear any pants without a belt. I'm giving more and more clothes away.

However, I still have 38 pounds to loose, to be at my goal. I'm going to really start watching what I'm eating again... less carbs, more protein. I still can't stomach protein shakes though. Between the taste and the sweet, It makes me want to be sick.

I also plan to start walking after work. Even if it's only a few blocks, it needs to be done. I'm anxious to get my license for massage in Missouri, so I can start that type of work again. I lost so much weight when I was working as a therapist. When I was actively using my body everyday, and no longer behind the desk.

I'm putting my goal at 6 months to loose the 38 pounds. Putting it out there for everyone to see. And putting it out there to hold myself accountable for that goal.

Dear January 2011, you will see me at a slim 170 pounds.

XX

So today was my date with the scale. To my surprise It stopped at 210 pounds. Which is 101 pounds down from my 311 pound heft about a year ago. A majority of that (87 pounds) has been lost in the last 10 months.

I'm glad to walk around a happier and healthier me.


On a side note, I've moved from Detroit, MI to Jefferson City, MO. So, I've got a new town, and a new life... I'm ready to dive in <3


XOXO
A

Several years ago I made a New Years Resolution. My resolution was to be a size 16 by the end of the year. The end of the year came and I was still not in that size 16. I was crestfallen, but life went on. When I began this journey I was in a size 24 pants. 24 pushing 26 to be honest.

Today I went to ICHQ. I went there wearing a pair of low rise size 16 jeans. It's my first weight related accomplishment in 2010. It may be 3 years to late, but I've finally achieved that goal.

Humility aside, I'm proud of myself.

So, today I realized I'm only 70# away from goal... In the new year I'm going to kick ass!! I'm giving my self to my 1 year mark to loose that 70#. So... 7 months, 70#... loose 10# a month... I think that's reasonable.

I cannot wait for this damned holiday season to be over! So much focus is put on food and eating durring this season. If I see another cookie or pie I may just have to be sick!

Now, prior to surgery, my downfall was sweets. Cookies, cakes, chocolate, ice cream. They all had my number, and I loved each one fully, and without prejudice. They were my comfort in times of stress or sadness. They were my friend, and always there.


No matter what they tell you about not being able to tolerate sugar, (especially with the RNY bypass) everyone is different. Each body reacts differently to sugar, and as your healing progresses and you are further into your recovery, the more your body will tolerate. Sugar included.


For my first bout with sugar was with a protein cereal about 10 weeks or so after surgery. It ended poorly, and I was in excruciating pain for hours. 1/2c of this cereal... I think it was 9g or 11g of sugar per serving. Coupled with the sugar from my Silk (as I found I wasn't as dairy tolerant as I thought I was). It was a disaster.


Further on it got easier. I was able to tolerate the natural sugars, honey... fruit sugars, and eventually refined sugar. Cookies, pies, chocolate and ice cream... my friends were finally back in town.


I found that the stress or sadness I experienced had never left, and that I was able to tolerate my comforters again. I found that it was easy to derail yourself... one cookie at a time. Not to mention I looove to bake, and that my mum's business is "Angie's Sweet Treats". Not that it's an excuse, but it is defiantly a contributor.

So for the summary to all of this nonsense, I have a resolution for the new year. To get my dumb ass back on track and stop lollygagging about, and screwing up my goals. Refined sugar, to hell with you. New gym, at least twice a week (now that I have school in the evenings again).


I'm 5 months post op and have only lost 70 pounds. I'm proud of where I am, but I know I can do better. And my streamlining my nutritional intake (again) I hope to regain a loss of 10-15 pounds a month for the next 6 or 7 months.


So here's to the chicken fatoosh salad, and unsweetened ice tea I'm having for lunch.


Time to get myself in gear.

XX

Today I had to get new scrubs for my new job as a massage therapist!! The top was an XL, and the bottoms were a L!
First time I've ever fit into a Large!!!

Small accomplishments are not always that small :):):)

With all of the bad that has transpired this last week I can't really complain. Tons of celebrating!!! Thanksgiving, My Da's birthday, and a new job offer! So we've had tons of rich and delicious food, and many drinks.

With all of that, I've still lost a pound this week... sitting myself around a comfortable 65 pound weight loss since 7/20/09.

Below is what I've learned:

Alcohol:
Must be extremely limited. It’s all calories, carbs, and sugar.
Not that I’m a beer drinker, but the lovely men of Icrontic (Rob, and Brian… that’s you ) introduced me to a few beers that don’t make me retch immediately. I couldn’t finish 1/3 of a bottle… It’s heavy and carbonated…
Wine… I love my wine! Had a glass on Thanksgiving, and one last night for celebratory purposes… Was able to consume more wine than beer…
Liquor isn’t really my friend anymore :( While expected this still makes me a little sad. My favorite drink is an Amaretto Sour. Simple and sweet. Prior to surgery I was able to drink 2-3 over the course of an evening and be fine… Now I can barely get through one without feeling it.

I’ve found that liquor has the biggest impact in the alcohol world… So if you’re drinking socially, stick to something you can sip throughout the evening.

Food:
Always stick to your protein first. It doesn’t matter how tempting the roll is, or Grandma’s homemade mashed potatoes…. Eat the turkey first! You will stuff your pouch full of carbs… and not have room for what your body really needs. You’re only able to take so much in now... choose wisely.

Thanksgiving was probably the best day of this weekend. There was turkey, small scoop of mashed potatoes, ½ a heat n’ serve roll, some sweet potato (cinnamon only) and my wine. Sure… again carb heavy on what got on my plate… but the turkey was eaten first… and nothing else on the plate got finished. And again… Didn’t over eat or feel sick.

Better yet. Didn’t have the urge to eat, eat, eat.


All in all I’ve feeling good about the way things are progressing.
I still look in the mirror and see the 311 pound me. But I’m finding that I’m more comfortable in social settings. And I feel people perceive and react to me differently than they use to.

Life is changing dramatically. Everyday I find that one challenge I faced isn’t as hard as it once was. Everyday always brings a new challenge though.

My latest is being defined by others by having Gastric Bypass. Difficult to explain, but I promise to touch more on this later.

XO- Amanda

Ladies of OH. I'm sure you can see my pleasure with this one...

Last night I was able to remove the extender from my bra and wear it comfortably.

Life is good.

65# lost. 95# to goal.

It's difficult being the center of attention everywhere you go. I've decided that it is the biggest drawback of the surgery for me.

I'd rather be invisible any day.

My hair isn't falling out like it was. There is a plus, I suppose.