trapshootgal
I was never overweight until I had my 1st child when I was twenty. I gained 60 lbs during my pregnancy and can remember being devastated about gaining so much weight. I lost all of the weight I gained when I became pregnant with my 2nd child. Again, I gained 60 lbs and again I lost all of that weight after my son was born. The weight came on slowly throughout the years though. I was always on a diet, euphoric when I would lose weight and depressed when I would gain the weight back plus extra weight. So here I am 29 years later and 190 lbs heavier than I was before the yo-yo began. I have always felt that the pregnancies affected my hormone levels in a way where I felt hungry all of the time. The only time I felt like I had a "normal" appetite would be around 2 days before my monthly cycle would begin. My appetite would drop to nothing. Unfortunately, it would only last for a couple of days until the next month rolled around. I told a couple of Dr's about this, but they told me it was all in my head.
I finally decided to stop dieting; I could no longer take the short success knowing the weight would all come back. I made this decision over a year ago and have not lost or gained any weight since. I had been looking into WLS for several years. I will be having RNY surgery on 1/26/11. I am very excited and looking forward into doing things I have not been able to do for many years. I definitely do not have to weigh 120 lbs like I did before the kids were born, I would be happy to be "overweight" instead of "super morbidly obese". My goals are: to ride horses this summer with my granddaughter, cross my legs, get off the CPAP, get off blood pressure medicine, wear a dress that doesn't look like a tent.
I wonder what my mental body image will be like. Now, when I look in the mirror I see a normal weight person. When I look at pictures, I cannot believe the person in the picture is me especially if there are other people in the picture.
I am so looking forward to this...
