Treasa B.
My story..... this could be long. I am not sure.
I have always been heavy set, except when I was a baby. In the 6th grade I was 11 years old. I remember we moved to Ohio because of a housefire. My mom took us girls shopping for school clothes. While we were shopping my mom made a comment on how big I was getting and we could not tell my dad what size skirt we had to buy me. The skirt was a size 18. I never realized how big I actually was back then and it is still hard to believe to look at someone who is a size 18 that I was wearing that when I was 11.
In school I had many problems with the other kids making fun of me because of my weight. I hated school. Believe it or not, I still hate most of those kids who made my life hell. My head is so totally messed up because of the crap I went through.
I finanlly dropped out of school my senior year. My parents just did not understand how bad things actually were for me. They would not let me drop out or change schools. So when I became old enough I did it myself. When I dropped out of school I was a 26/26 jean. I stayed that size for a long time.
I became pregnant with my oldest son. Gained some weight, and was still able to get into my 26/28 jeans.....very tightly. I then stayed that size for about 6 years even after having my 2nd son.
Before my 2nd son was born (while I was pregnant) my husband and I split up for a couple years. About 3 years after we slit up. we decided we would get back together. Within two months after we had gotten back together, I gained 60 pounds.... can you believe it.... 60 pounds in two months!! I was so disgusted. I stayed that weight for about 3 years or so and then I within 3 years I have gained an extra 30 pounds. So now, I weight 394 lbs.
I am so ashamed and disguested with myself for letting myself get as big as I am. I am only 5ft 3in and 394 lbs. My surgeon said that I am super morbidly obese. When I look in a mirror I never really seen me to be that size. I still seen what I used to be. I have not been able to wear a pair of jeans now for about 6 years now. I can not find anyone who makes them in my size (if I knew what size I wear). And I can not afford them even if I did know.
I decided back in Sept 09 that I was going to get my motorcycle license. I took a class and it was required to wear jeans or leather pants. Of course, I am not going to wear leather. lol I had a friend who is bigger than me and he just went through surgery himself for the RnY. He said he had a pair of overalls I could borrow for the class. We went to his house to pick them up. He pulled them out and I looked at them and I thought, OMG! I am going to swim in them. So I put them on to try them out and they fit almost perfectly!! I started balling... I did not realize how big I actually was until right then. The overalls he had let me borrow were a size 64 in mens.
That is what made me deicde that I am going to go through with the surgery no matter what my husband or anyone else says.
I want this.. I need this... and I am GOING to have this done!!
