trippsmommy
Hi my name is Ginger. I am a senior LPN at a Rural Health Family Care Clinic. I was not fat all my life. So this is new to me I started gaining weight about 2 years after I got married. When I was 125# I thought I could eat anything and it would not catch up with me. I had a baby girl in 1989 suffered from gestational diabetes. She was 4 weeks premature and 7lb 4 oz. If I would have carried her full term she would have been an 11# baby. With this pregnancy I lost 11# from my starting weight. I was not a healthy person. My OB insisted that I gain weight after my pregnancy due to the weight loss. So I did. I started out before pregnancy at 125 while I was pregnant I gained 11lbs. Week after I had her I weighed 114#. I began eating and not worrying about what I ate as long as I gained some weight that was all that mattered. Then 3 years later I became pregnant again. while I was pregnant with my second daughter in 1992 I gained a lot of weight came down with chicken pox at 4 months along. I was ill through out both pregnancies. I weighed 150# before I bacame pregnant with her and when I had her I weighed 185#. From that moment on I struggled with my weight. I dieted for what seem like forever I lost but as every dieters fairy tale goes I gained it back and then more. I went as far as using diet pills a 30 day pack would last about 7-10 days. Everytime I was hungry I would take another pill. I lost 60 # in 3 months I practically starved myself and had palpitations to boot. I went to practical nursing school in 1996. I ate and studied for a year along with working full time at a nursing home. I gained all of the 60# and then more while I was in school. When I graduated from Nursing I was 195#. I am now 242 and very miserable like everyone that has excess weight. I cry nightly when I look in the mirror. I promote weight loss at the clininc I work. What a hypocrite I am. Where do I have the room to talk when I can't even lose weight.
So this is where I am. I wear a size 20-22 pants 1-2 xl shirts. I have a wonderful husband of 22 years and two beautiful girls that support me in every way. I should be very thankful for that. (and I AM) I have God on my side everywhere I go which makes me even more apt to lose weight. I am going to have surgery on the 17th of May with Dr Follwell. This will be the first day of the rest of my life. I will look forward to having smaller clothes, Promoting weight loss to my patients and not be a hypocrite.
