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So I got on the scale 4 times the other day and it said 171.9...well that damn scale lied but that's ok.  Started Brazil Butt Lift this morning and did the Bum Bum workout...I couldn't do the Tummy tuck yet this morning, I'll save that for my lunch hour.  Just starting out I'm just not there yet.  Realized how out of shape I am.  But moving in the right direction is always good.  Good weekend with the Doodlebug, relaxed because this is going to be one heck of a week.  I'm starting a Master Chef Culinary class this week, busy week at work is planned, Zoe's dr appointments, acupuncture this week too.  

I broke that barrier of my lowest weight this morning.  It was 173 and I got on the scale this morning and say 171.9.  I got on it 4 times just to make sure.  After this long lingering neck and back injury, I finally got to exercise yesterday too.  I've been just doing some stretching and ab work on an exercise ball for the past 2 weeks but yesterday was a bit of cardio and some upper body work on the few machines my apartment gym has to offer.  Today it's lower body and more cardio, ab work and some stretching.  I actually ordered the Brazil Butt lift CD workout series off tv.  I am going to try it out.  Would love to mix it up and get my body in shape and firm as well as build a bit of muscle tone.  I'm a little pleasantly surprised that they scale in where it is.  I'm never really hungry but I can be a snacker still...just mindlessly eat.  But I've been really good about it as of late.  Lots of water intake...it's making my skin look much better too.  

I am going to my family reunion trip this July in the Outer Banks in NC, I am looking forward to being at my realized goal weight, toned and lean and rocking a bikini at 41.  

I've been looking at pictures from back before my surgery and many after and leading up until today that I've lost a total of 55 lbs, 35 more to go.  I've come along way not just with the weight loss but in the pictures.  When I gained weight, I never wanted my picture taken at all.  And because of that, I have lost a lot of memories with others as keepsakes of fun times in my life.  The excessive weight I was carrying was just ruining my outlook on life and my zeal for enjoying it.  And although, I always tried my best to smile and laugh and have a good time, I was so not happy inside.  But now that life has taken a 180 again for me and has put me in a completely different job, home and attitude, I am happy.  I may not be making the $$$ I want but I'm happy.  I may not be living in the exact place I want to live but I'm happy.  I may not be to my goal weight just yet but I am getting there and I am happy.  And when I take a picture of myself or with others, I am still critical of it because I have that mind set of I don't like pictures of myself but I am taking them more and more and working on removing that issue from my mind.  I see the smile and know, I am happy.  

Well, I made the scale see 180 on my birthday but it had a .8 behind it but for my purposes, I'm ok with it.  Now it said 179.8 this morning, I haven't seen a 17 in front of my weight in a long, long. long time.  And oh my gosh does it feel good.  I'm really sticking to my plan and eating only when I'm hungry, which is never so I do have to actually force down a meal a day but it's on a small plate and I'm still doing only 1 protein shake a day and tons of water.  It's not been very difficult but I do get that occasional boredom  urger to just stare into my fridge and look for something to eat but I try to remember my sign...are you hungry or just bored???  then I reach for my water and head back to what I am doing.  Since losing my job a few weeks ago, I really thought my weight loss progress would take a nose dive and I'd be gaining back. but I'm glad I've stayed on track.  17.8# loss since getting back on track in August.  

The scale showed 180.8 this morning and that's less than a pound away from my hope to make it to 180 by my birthday tomorrow.  But more than that, It's a milestone for me in many ways.  It's the lowest I've been since surgery, my lowest was 181.4 and it's close to 40# away from my goal weight.  So 16.8# total lost since I've gotten back on track.  That's the great news, bad news is I lost my job yesterday.  I am regrouping and working towards a plan of selling some things off and job hunting.  

Well, I've met and passed the halfway point in my weight loss goal.  Now I'm focused on the second half of my journey, getting to my goal weight.  As of this morning, I'm 20# away from the halfway point to 140#.  I think I will be there by the end of this year or at least by the beginning of February for sure.  I am down to the lowest size in my closet for clothes, size 14.  Some fit a little big, most fit just right and some are still a little tight.  But this is the bottom of the barrel on clothes.  I'm going to be a bit bohemian over the next few sizes and shop thrift stores for clothes until I get to my right size.  I may have to pick up a few things for office visits for work and meetings for catering clients but I don't want to spend a ton of $$$ on clothes that I won't be wearing for very long.  I'm kind of fanatical about the scale right now, I pretty much weight myself in the morning first thing on a daily basis.  But I'm trying to only do my measurements once a month to really see the full impact of weight loss and exercising on the inches lost all over.  I am feeling great about the progress.  I haven't see this much progress since I first had my surgery and then when I had my gall bladder surgery.  I really needed to get my head back in the game and back on track. 

Let's see if I can get to my next milestone of 180 by my 41st Birthday this Saturday!!!

At least I persevere.  As of this morning, I am .2# away from halfway to my goal weight of 140.  I've dropped 12.4# in 2 weeks just by being back on the program and listening to my body about my hunger.  I have a sign on my fridge that says...Are you hungry or just bored?  And I really am making sure I read that sign when I start staring into the fridge.  Because I'm a bored eater but also a happy eater, a sad eater, etc...you get the point.  But I'm happy with my progress as of late. Just need to get back to exercising as well to tighten it all up too. 

I realized today updating my weight on the tracker that I'm half way to my goal weight.  I've lose 46# since my highest weight and I really can't believe it.  I've struggled for so long with my weight even after surgery but I'm getting there.  My wish was to lost it slowly, and well that's how it's been.  I've gone up and down a few times but the steady decline has been really good and now to tighten it all up.  I need to be more consistant with going to the gym and exercising for tone my body and get lean.  I've had a lot of stresses with my partnership ending, custody battles, sick parent, etc.  And I've lost myself in the mix as I normally do.  I need to do for me now.  Goal weight...here I come!!!

Well, not only have I staying in Onederland, I've been continuing to lose and that feels great.  I even lost over the holidays.  This week alone I've dropped 4#.  I think getting on my new dose of thyroid medication has really helped.  Well this was just a quick update...back to the Friday grind

Enjoy,
Willow 

Happy Friday all,
Just got back from my lunch break walk and I got in 3 days of walking this week, one day was raining and the other was because I was helping my mom.  So I'm most likely going to take Zoe with me on Saturday to get in another walk for the week.  One more week and I can get back to the gym, I've got a 12 week cardio and weight training plan ready to go.  Total weight loss as of today is 32.2 (13 since the gall bladder surgery) and I have to honestly say, I have not felt this great in years.  I'm still without an appetite, I eat because I have to and the regulatrity hasn't fully come back yet but Dr Lee gave me some meds for that.  I'm getting in plenty of water so I'm hoping that will work it's self out soon. 

My clothes are fitting better, I have much more energy, I'm sleeping better...and nothing looks so good as a '1' in front of that scale. 

Have a great weekend all-
Willow