Wendi W.

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It has been awhile since I last posted a blog, but when one feels discouraged, it is sometimes hard to get up and moving.  Because my husband is retired military we have Tricare.  So, when I started my new job in February, I truned down my company's insurance.  Well, open enrollment comes in October so I contacted benefits to inquire about WLS and I received word today that it is covered.  So now I wait and enroll in my company's plan in October.  The insurance is Blue Cross Blue Shield - Illinois.  Benefits forwarded the information that was sent by email from the insurance company along with their email communication showing that it is covered.  In other words I have information directly from them in writing....Should not have any issues. 

Finally, the week is here that I have been not so patiently waiting for....My week is busy as always.  My week starts off with having to take care of a three-day meeting at work (meeting supplies, food, etc.), Editing the Q2 10-Q so it can go for filing with the SEC.  Home work for my business law class, getting my son on a plane to Cali to see grandma.  Some where in there I have to find time to clean house, and sleep....

I have started making my plans for the day I hit my mini goals following surgery.  I know I have a tendency to put the cart before the horse, but I know that won't say no to me...I will get the surgery with no problem.

Since making my decision, and telling my dh that this is the way it will be and if he doesn't like it too bad...he changed his tune.  I just made him aware that when the weight is gone, I will be able to wear the victoria secret and other sexy under garnments.   

My brain is on overdrive....all I can think about is WLS.  I want it and I need it.  I had a thought today that said if you gain 6 more pounds, your BMI will be 40 and you wont have to jump through hoops.  Then my mind runs through the thoughts of the doctors saying all those wonderful negative things and tells me "no"   He tells me I need to eat less, have more will power, you haven't tried hard enough, etc. etc......

Ughhhhh I hate to wait.

It is hard to believe that I made the decision to work my way towards geting WLS.  I am the type of person who when they make a decision, they want to get done and over with.  My appointment with the primary care manager at the Navy Hospital is still two weeks away.  So here I am in the mean time still doing all the research I can do, and still be doing my homework for Business Law.  My husband, while he may say he is supporting my decision, I truly don't think he is.  I wish he truly would understand what is going on with me in the fact that I am no longer a happy person, I have been on anit-depressants for almost a year.  It doesn't matter what I do, I can not seem to loose weight.  I no longer have the energy to do anything any more. I hope that I can have this surgery by December.  I would make this my Christmas present to myself.