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I am officially 4 weeks post-op. For the first time I can say I am sure I made the right choice to have this surgery. I have lost 30 lbs and dropped almost 4 sizes, but better yet I feel great. I am finally feeling like I have energy. In 2 days I will be going back to work and will be seeing people that I have not seen since before surgery. I am wondering what thier reactions will be. Good, bad or otherwise. Most of my co-workers knew about the surgery. 
Lastly, I just have to say that I am so greatful for my family's support. They have been terrific. I could not have done it without them. They have been there for me every step of the way and I think are happy to see that I am getting healthier and happier. I could not have asked for anything more in my life right now. I can truley say for the first time in a long time that I am happy and blessed.

I am 13 days post-op today. I feel pretty good, have had no complications or major issues. I can't wait to get the staples out of my belly. I hate them most. I am down 24 lbs and went from size 20-22 to 18. 242lbs down to 218. Very promising. My computer has been giving me a really hard time & has made it hard to post sooner. My grandmother died exactly 1 week after I had surgery. We had her funeral yesterday. I have been a little bad, driving and doing more than I am suppose to. I have been doing house work and liftging my 1yr old. It's hard not to. She doesn't underdstand. Plus I am alone with my 1 yr old & 2 yr old during the day. Plus the weather has been really nice & it makes me feel like I have more energy than I really do. By mid-day I am pooped-out and need a nap. I am going back to school for my BA degree in nursing and my first class in this afternoon. I am gonna be dead tired. No nap today.

In approx 4 hrs I go under the knife. It feels pretty surreal right now. The process seemed to take forever. It felt like this day would never come. Well, here it is. There is still that small part of me that keeps thinking maybe I am not making the right decision. Than I read others success stories and I know this is the right choice. I have told everyone at work about the surgery. Most are happy for me. There are always the couple who have to put in the "You don't need it" bit. Well, I have to remind them that they do not have to live in this body. Of course the are skinny/tiny girls. I just want to say "bite me". I am doing this for me and me only. I keep going over in my mind-have I gotten everything done that needs done before I am in the hosp for the next 4 days. Guess it better be at this point. My older daughter is very distraught about the surgery and actually wants to stay at the hospital with me. I have to constantly reassure her that everything will be OK. God I hope I'm right. She'll never forgive me if something goes wrong. We are as close as a mother & daughter can be. I don't think she would be OK without me. (and vise verse). Just for the record, my kids are my absolute world. I would not have a reason to get out of bed in the morning if it weren't for them. Please god let me get back to them safely and quickly. This will be the longest I will have ever been away from them in their entire lives and mine. It makes me feel selfish to be having this surgery because of that, even though I know they will be OK. When I get back it will be like I never left. I hope to get back on & write as soon as I can post surgery. Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

OK...Surgery tomorrow. I am almost freaking out. I am so happy, excited, scared, terrified..etc. I am on a two day only liquid diet. I can handle that. My stomach keeps doing flips every time I think about the surgery being tomorrow. The past 8 months have drone on since I decided to have this surgery. I am glad to have alot of support from my family. I just hope every thing goes well, especially for them. I don't want my children to loose their mother because I chose to have this surgery. That is what scares me the most. I can handle the pain and the thought of being cut open does not bother me a bit. Certainly the NG-tube is not my favorite things in the whole world. I have put hundreds in, but this will be the first time I will have one myself. YUCK!  I may post once more tomorrow morning before I go in. I don't have to be at the hospital until 7:30 and of course, because I work nights, I am scheduled to work the night before surgery. That is crazy. So I will work all night being NPO-nothing by mouth from 10pm until surgery at 10am. I than leave work, drive 30 minutes to the hospital and get ready for surgery. I am afraid I will forget and drink something tonight at work. Gosh, I hope not. Ok, I am now psyching myself out. I got to stop thinking so much about it. Wish me luck.