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IT IS TUESDAY MARCH 25TH , A WEEK  FROM MY SURGERY, AND I'M SO EXCITED I CAN'T WAIT. AT THIS POINT  I'M REALLY UNDER A LOT OF STRESS, I'M NOT GOING TO LIE, I'M VERY ANXIOUS AND HAVEN'T BEEN SLEEPING WELL AT NIGTH, IT IS AS IF I WANTED TIME TO FLY, SO MY SURGERY DATE WOULD COME. 
 
IT IS SATURDAY 29th, MY SURGERY IS IN TWO DAYS, AND THERE'S A LOT OF EMOTIONS AND THOUGHTS GOING THROUGH MY MIND. IS IT EVERYTHING GOING TO BE OK?, WOULD I BE IN A LOT OF PAIN?, IS IT GOING TO WORK FOR ME?, AND THIS LAST CONCERN IS BECAUSE LATELY IT SEEMS AS IF CAN NOT STOP EATING, I'M HUNGRY ALL THE  TIME, NOTHING SEEMS TO SATISFY ME, THE MORE I EAT, THE MORE I WANT. I HOPE THIS IS A PRE-OP FASE. OTHER THAN THAT I'M EXTRMELY EXCITED AND CAN'T WAIT FOR TUESDAY. 

OK, IT'S 1:26AM, SO IT IS "OFFICIALLY MONDAY THE 31ST"  AND I'M SOOOO ANXIOUS. IF THAT'S WHAT YOU CALL TO HAVING AN EMPTY FEELING IN MY STOMACH  (NOT 'CAUSE OF HUNGER)  BUT BECAUSE OF THE STRESS, NERVES, ANTICIPATION, ETC.
I KNOW EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OK, BECAUSE GOD IS GOING TO LEAD MY SURGEON'S HANDS, BUT I CAN'T HELP BEING A LITTLE SCARE, AND I KNOW THE REASON FOR ME TO BE IS "MY DAUGTHER" SHE'S MY WORLD, AND I'M HER WORLD, AND SHE'S ONLY 6, I WANT TO BE THERE FOR HER EVERY STEP OF HER WAY. OK LET ME STOP, I HAVE NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT, AS LONG AS I HAVE MY LORD, I'LL BE JUST FINE. 

IT IS APRIL,7th AND I'M OFICIALLY A POST-OP, IT HAS BEEN 6 DAYS SINCE MY SURGERY "SORRY FOR NOT POSTING BEFORE, BUT I'VE BEEN AT MY MOM'S, AND SHE DOESN'T OWN A PC," I WAS ADMITED TO THE HOSPITAL AT 6AM ON APRIL 1ST, THE SURGERY STARTED AT 8AM, AND ENDED AT ABOUT 11:40AM, WHEN I WOKE UP I WASN'T IN ANY PAIN, BUT HAPPY THAT THE SURGERY PART WAS OVER.
I CAME HOME ON THURSDAY, MY DOCTOR THOUGHT IT WAS ALRIGTH , SINCE I HAD DONE SO GOOD.LIKE I SAID I WAS FEELING GREAT. TO BE HONEST , I ANTICIPATED MUCH MORE PAIN, BUT I'M HAPPY I THOUGHT WRONG..LOL..
I HAVEN'T FELT NAUSEUS, DIZZY, OR WEAK.
IT'S BEEN 6 DAYS AND ALL I CAN THINK OF NOW IS IN, HOW MUCH AM I GOING TO LOSE? WHEN IS IT GOING TO SHOW?
I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR ONE, TWO, THREE, FOUR MONTHS TO COME. I'VE NEVER BEEN SOOOOOOOO EXCITED IN MY LIFE.


IT IS APRIL 9TH, AND YESTERDAY WAS THE FIRST TIME AFTER I CAME HOME THAT I HAD PAIN. I WAS DRINKING 3 OUNCES OF MY(LIQUIFIED) SOUP, WHILE I WAS WHATCHING TV AND I GUESS I DRANK IT TO FAST,  I WAS IN PAIN FOR A GOOD 15 TO 20 MINUTES. BUT THEN I TOOK MY PAIN MEDICINE AND IT WHENT AWAY. NOW I'M CONVINCED MY STOMACH IS TINY. OTHER THAN THAT I'VE BEEN FEELING PRETTY GOOD. I AM HAVING TROUBLE DRINKING THE PROTEIN AND LIQUIDS THAT I NEED, JUST 'CAUSE I'M NOT HUNGRY NOR THIRSTY, AND IT'S HARD WHEN YOU DON'T WANT TO DRINK OR EAT, HAVING TO DO IT. THIS IS SO WEIRD, I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M SAYING THIS, BUT I DON'T CARE FOR FOOD ANYMORE. (I ALREADY LOST 8 POUNDS)