zipchick
One Phonecall
Aug 19, 2008
Funny how one phonecall can absolutely change everything. Today I got a call from Dr. Jawad's office to say that they were ready to set a date for my surgery and without notice everything changed. It is here...the time is here. I used to say "someday" I will get the WLS and now someday is 10/14/2008. I feel like I am moving in a dream. It is real and it is not real. I have a million things going through my head. Will I be successful? Will I get bored with the lifestyle changes? Will I wake up one day screaming take it all back? What challenges will I face that I havent anticipated up to this point? Will I look back and mourn the person I am right now or worse will I be ashamed of fat Martha....I hope not. For me to say that the new Martha is better than fat Martha means that the core person I am now loses value. I really like this her...she is one cool chick. Man I think way too much about this stuff...lol. I need to check myself before I wreck myself. OUT!
