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I wish I could say I have done every thing perfect in this journey, but, I havn't. This new lifestyle is unfolding to me daily. I am finding that what works for one person doesn't always work for someone else. My tastebuds have changed and I am adapting to that. Having to get rid of all of my clothes is interesting- didn't think the weight would come off so quickly. But I am sooo glad to say that I am on my way to the best part of my life. Knee pains are less of a bother; learning to accept compliments and side glances from the opposite sex; ON MY WAY to living my life like it's GOLDEN...

Today, I went back to work after 6 weeks. It was okay, my coworkers were awed by my weight loss. I did get a little tired, but, it was a good day. '

As I am getting back to a better me, I am finding that old mindsets have to be addressed and discarded. I think our weight insulates us-becomes a comfort blanket or shield. Comfort from disappointments, heartaches, failures.  Shield from new acquaintances, new projects, new adventures.
It's funny that I can remember almost every negative thing anyone ever said to me or about me and not a lot of the positive. I can remember Mr. Cantrell, social studies teacher in high school, calling me a weird little fat girl. I can remember being told I walked funny by the guys in my neighborhood growing up and the list goes on.  All the accolades and congrats I have recieved in life, I can't remember those words.
Maybe this extended time of healing has a dual purpose. Healing for me physically and mentally...

I am still adjusting this new life style- spend most of my day taking meds, vitamins, getting protein in, doing fluids. My energy level is still not quite where I need it to be, but, good things come in time.
The pants I wore to the hospital was a 4X, the pants I have on now are a 3x- Whoooopppie....

Wow, this time 2 weeks ago I was looking in the face of my surgeon and the supporting cast for my surgery. I knew this was going to be a life changing event. I foresaw no complications having complete confidence in God and my surgeon. My confidence was not shaken, but, I did have complications. Some scarring in my spleen caused blood loss. I had to have 2 units of bloods for 3 days. morphine, IV, blood pressure problems, in ICU one day, intermidiate care for 4 days, hospital stay 5 days. Throughout all of this, I still know that my VSG was the right decision. Dr Scott Steinberg is the best of the best. He was in constant communication with the hospital especially that first night for that I am grateful. At my first followup visit last week I had lost 11 lbs-YEA. I am still having acid reflux problems, but this too shall pass. I am in it to lose it.....

This is my first post.  I am scheduled for gastric sleeve on 5/15/12, my surgeon in Dr. Scott Steinberg. This was a hard decision to make. I have dieted, lost weighted, regained weight- back and forth on the weight loss roller coster.
I have a family history of stroke, diabetes, high blood pressure, and high cholestrol.  Praise God, I don't have any of those ailments. I am plagued with osteoarthritis and lower back  problems. At my heaviest, I weighed 292,  did the Fat Smash Diet and got down to 225. Have regained a lot of that weight and currently I weigh 262.
I view 5/15/12 as an opportunity to get me closer to the life that God puposed for me.