Wow!!! Today is my 2nd anniversary. I remember that day like it was yesterday--was it really 2 years ago??? My life continues to be busy with my 4 boys and I am loving it. I don't think about my weight or surgery as often anymore. My days are so normal now. I no longer focus on food or my appearance. I love to meet people for the first time. They only know me at this size and I can "pretend" that this is how I have always been. ( I don't lie about it, but there is no reason to mention my previous size or weight loss). I find that I can eat pretty much whatever I want. There is no way for an "outsider" to tell that I am eating any differently than they are. I continue to keep my surgery private, only my husband and mom know. This has definitely been the right choice for me. This site has been my secret refuge and for that I am very thankful. I have never been one to brag about my weight loss or my size, but today I feel that I can share my joy and triumphs with everyone and you will understand. I checked last year's weight for this day and I weigh EXACTLY the same--123. I can not remember this ever happening. I was always either losing or gaining. Never maintaining. The only thing that is different is that I recently bought some size 4 pants and last year I was wearing a size 6. I don't feel like I look any smaller, maybe the pants are just made bigger(?). I eat whatever I want, but I avoid sweets most of the time. They just make my stomach feel "yucky". I have NEVER dieted. I don't deprive myself-the volume is just so much less. And then to something I'm not very proud of---I have never exercised-not once. I would really like to add this to my day, but am somewhat afraid that I will lose more weight and I don't want that to happen. (I know, lousy excuse!). My hair loss stopped about 8 months post op and my hair is about 75% recovered. It is getting thick again. I will have embarrassing gas odor if I am not careful what I eat and when. I've adapted to this mostly, but this has been the biggest down side to surgery. The last concern I have is for my long term health. Occasionally, I will have fleeting thoughts about my future health and wonder if this surgery will cause me to have any problems down the road. While I was losing weight that was the focus. Now that that is done, those little nagging thoughts occasionally creep in and frighten me. This is nothing that I dwell on and it certainly doesn't bring me down. I am too busy with my wonderful life, but those occasional thoughts are there. Any one else feel this way? Thanks for letting me share what's going on in my life on this day-my second anniversary. I know many of you are cheering for me in your little corner of the world. Love, Shelley