January 8, 2002--MY FIRST ANNIVERSARY!!! I am not sure how I feel today, I look at all of the changes in my life and am just amazed that it was ONLY a year ago that I had my surgery. Then in many other ways it seems like yesterday! First of all I want to thank each of you for giving me this safe place. I have kept this surgery extremely private and therefore don't have a lot of support otherwise. (I don't regret this in the least) However, it has been wonderful to come here and read, laugh, and cry with you. I have kept a very low profile. (Even my e-mail address isn't accurate because my real one has my last name in it. And for that I am really sorry). However, over this year I have e-mailed others with words of encouragement and assistance. I've enjoyed answering questions when I can. I don't profess to be an expert, no way. But there are things that I have found that work and am very happy to share them with others. My life before WLS was busy with managing 4 active boys and an active social life. Guess what? My life after WLS is busy with managing 4 active boys and an active social life!!! However, my outlook on life and perspective of my place in it has changed. I used to be a spectator, watching from the sidelines. I am now a participant and enjoying it. Did WLS make my life perfect? NO. There are many areas that this surgery did not change and I am not surprised. Over the past year, my main concern was hair loss. It started at about 2 1/2 months out and stopped at 8 months. I can honestly say that I lost 1/2 -3/4 of my hair. It is now growing back and I am managing to hide all of my new sprouts! Over this year, I have not been of the "bragging" sort. While I am excited for those that share their losses and new sizes with us (GO everyone!!!), I always feel bad for those that are pre-op, waiting for approval, denied, or losing at a slow pace. But today, I feel that I can share and will find only acceptance as this is my day. My starting weight was 263 and I am 5'2". I reached my goal weight of 139 in September. I now weigh 123 (a loss of 140 pounds!) and wear a size 6. I don't want to lose anymore and am adding calories. I feel that I look a bit thin and am hoping to bounce back a little. In a sense it has been a lonely year, but all of you have helped me. I've had this place to come where others know about my surgery and understand me. So, thank you. BTW, I started this post early this morning. Since that time I have showered, done 3 loads of laundry,paid bills, bathed 3 children, got two kindergarteners on the bus, feed my 20 month old 2 meals, went and helped in one of my kindergartener's classrooms. I realized as I was doing this that although today is a special day for me, my WLS is only a small part of who I am - it does not define me. My greatest joy these days, is meeting people for the first time and having them only know this me, the one that they see now. I am enjoying blendiing in and feeling normal. I can honestly say, that I would do this again 100 times if that's what it takes. Thanks again everyone!! Best of luck to everyone. If you want to get a message to me, the best place would be my surgery page. January 8, 2001 -January 8, 2002! Love, Shelley