277nomore
Hi now about me I am 46 and live in a small town east of Kansas City. I have one son that is mine and I have one that I kind of adopted when his life was going haywire. My son is 20 (wow how on earth did that happen just last week he started kindergarten) he lives in town. The other son is a marine and right now I think is in Afghanistan. When he left he didn't say where they were shipping him off to next hope to hear soon. I have struggled with my weight for years when I was in high school I weighed in at a whoppin 115 pounds and over the years I have ballooned up to 277. The things that I miss the most about being NORMAL sized are being able to by clothes at any store, looking good in a swimsuit, being able to get in and out of my car with ease, and horse backriding. I really miss horsebackriding it has been at least 7 yrs. My horse was my best friend I could tell him anything. Unfortunatly he had a stroke about 5 yrs ago and died while waiting on the vet. Then my first horse had to be put down about 2 yrs later. So I turned again to food to sooth my wounded heart and ate my sorrow. Well, we can see where that got me can't we. Here I am 277 pounds. So it is finally time to get in control of myself and quit looking back and from now on I will live for tomorrow instead of yesterday.
I was talking to my mom the other day and she confessed that every one was worried about my health. Then she said that she didn't think that I was. Oh mom how wrong you were I was so sad all the time that I didn't even want to go to her house for Thanksgiving or Christmas or be seen with the rest of my family because I was the fat one. I would cry when we all got together but doing anything about my weight seemed like more than I could handle. My sister bless her heart came and helped me get started on a program that really made me feel better but I couldn't stick with it. So this is for my family that I am doing this because of all of the things that they have done for me. Because I deserve to look and feel great. And be happy. Food will no longer control my every thought.
