Mrs.Ward789

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My best friend asked me if I'd lost anything since surgery and I have!  5 lbs in 5 days!  That's crazy right?! Crazy exciing!

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I am nervous and excited all at the same time!  I have lost 12.6 pounds during the preop diet alone.  I can't wait for this next chapter in my life!

I am down 6.6 pounds already just in the preop diet and I am only on day 4.....is this normal??

After all this time--it's all coming up so fast now.  I started my pre-op diet yesterday.  Already lost a pound, craziness.  I went to my pre-op teaching and my pre-op appointment at the surgery center.  It's a lot to take in, and apparently gonna cost me a lot too.  I just hope my husband and I come up with a way to afford it through the payment plans.  I know it's better for me and my health but I am feeling guilty that I am costing us all this money.  I hate that.  I'm hoping these next 12 days sail by without issue and I will be able to have the surgery after all my hardwork and planning.  I don't want to have done the pre-op diet for nothing.

Oh gosh, now I get nervous.  I know sorta what's going to happen tomorrow. I am 17 days until surgery so I have to start the lovely preop diet and all that junk.  Tomorrow I find out what that intales.  I don't know why I am nervous, I think I am nervous and excited mainly.  Ready to start this new chapter in my life.  Ready to live and love life.  Ready to love photographs being taken of myself again.  Ready for a lot of things that I haven't done in a long time or ever in some cases.  I am 25 years old and in a couple of weeks I will be well on my way to a brighter future.  My only hope is that everything goes well and that seeing my success (hopefully) my husband will deciede to have Sleeve too.  I want him healthier too.  I can't wait for my best friend to take me to Hollister to go shopping -- it's her favorite store and I have only ever walked in there to buy her gift certificates for Christmas.  I set my goal today of 140 lbs.  I would like to weigh that.  That puts me in the "normal" BMI range, not overweight, not obese, just normal.  I've never set out to be a skinny Minnie size 2.  I would be ever so happy with a size 8.  I guess that's what all of this boils down to.....I am so ready to get to my end result.  I am ready for the new life.  As far as I know, people with the Sleeve surgery feel tons better even by the time they go back to work and they see a significant difference in 6 months.  So ready for that.  Ready for people from high school to no longer recognize me (in a god way).  I can't wait!  Wish me luck tomorrow! Oh and luck for Tuesday too, I have all my preop labwork to do at the surgery center.

I go for my pre op appointment on Monday the 21st of February, and all my pre op blood work on Tuesday the 22nd.  I start my pre op diet on the 22nd too I bet.  I am so ready for this surgery, I am ready for a new life.  I am ready for the chance to get pregnant and have a healthy baby.  I know I can't do anything until weight comes off.  I am excited about the changes, my husband told me last night that he likes me the way I am now.  I explained to him that being the way I am now, I hurt everyday. I am 25 years old, I shouldn't hurt everyday of my life.  I am hoping and praying that with surgery and the weight coming off, I will get rid of my back problems, leg problems, asthma, intermittent hypertension, and finally be able to conceive a child.  I can't wait for this new life to start.  Only 7 more work days until my surgery.  I am thrilled.  I really hope the time flies!  :)

I will always remember the way I felt when I got denied the first time.  It was after sitting around sulking (and eating, let's be real here) that I watched a girl I work with go through surgery with a doctor here in my area.  I was just about sick of my previous weight loss surgeon's office, or should I say one office staff member that I had to deal with all the time and she wasn't exactly friendly; so I called this new office.  I set an appointment for a couple weeks into January thinking maybe if I am lucky I will have surgery by Christmas.  TODAY, February 11th, 2011, I find out that my surgery is 100% approved and covered.  They scheduled me for the Sleeve on 03/09/2011 and can I tell you how thrilled that makes me!  My husband is a little nervous for me but when I met him I was 90 pounds thinner than I am right now so "getting smaller" will only make me more healthy.  Not make me leave my husabnd.  Besides which, he's going to follow in my footsteps in a few short months anyway.  ;-)  Or that's the plan for now anyway.  Well, I will become more friendly with my OH now, I guess now I don't have to hang my head in shame.  Now, I can look ahead at all the great adventures I have to come.  Yay!

I finally got the courage to create an account on here and it came after I was denied from having DS.  The insurance company denied me because 1 of my medical records has my BMI at 39% and it needs to be at 40% in order to be approved without any comorbities.  I'm pissed at the insurance company because it makes me feel like I have to be more broken than I already am to be approved.  I was getting so excited too.  I am not going to get my hopes up though.  My doctor is doing a Peer to Peer on this coming Wednesday hopefully and if that doesn't work I am going to go get a sleep study done.  I don't think I have sleep apnea but on some weird level I hope I have it so they'll approve the surgery.  I just want to be healthy!  I'm sure this seems like a giant rant but it's just my inner frusterations coming out I guess.  I look forward to all the new things that will be coming my way in the future and through God's grace I will have the surgery and become a healthier person for the rest of my life.