Dia
This is it! I know that there is a lot going on right now but I want you to remember that 1) God has not given us a spirit of fear and 2) He said in his word that he would never leave you nor forsake you (remember that he said never). I too felt the way you did (past tense). I cried so much thinking about my son. I didn't want to leave him motherless. I worried so much, I had so many people praying for me and get this, I haven't even had surgery yet! Dia, we are overcomers. This is where that word faith comes in and even though it might be hard. Just think back to when you were in labor and having babies. That was hard too.
Father God, in the name of Jesus, I pray today that your mercy and grace will be with Dia. I pray that your spirit will fill her capacity and that your joy will replace all fear and doubt. Father, your child needs you today, let her know that you will be standing with her in the room, holding onto her hand, whispering softly that you are with her today and always. Thank you Lord, for your mercy and grace. Amen. Dia, I'll see you on the other side. God Bless.