Melany,
I really know that feeling of total pre op panic. I had my surgery on August 29. I really knew I was going to die. I have 2 small children, and prior to surgery couldn't even go to the mall with them without being miserable....short of breath, in pain with constant back ache. I was always bitchy because I was so miserable. My BMI was exactly the same as yours. After almost 2 mos, I'm down 50 lbs. and am playing tennis again!!! I have had NO complications. I even enjoy all the flavors of protein. I did have the lap RNY. The panic you feel is normal. This surgery is like a life long fantasy come true. Last Sunday, after playing tennis (my girls were at the park playing on the swings and watching me), we went to the mall to buy Halloween costumes, went to the drug store to pick up a script, went grocery shopping, and I was in good humor the entire time!!! What a gift to give my family!! Good luck to you.