Nicole F.
My Story, Eh? Well... It's probably like most other people's who find themselves on OH.com...
Growing up I was always "Chubby" or "Chunky" ... or whatever you want to label it. I was a fat kid. Not terribly overweight where it was a "medical" issue. My family would always say, its baby fat or you'll thin out when you're older.
Hell no I didn't. I took the DNA right from My grandmother. I look like her & I was chubby like her. Well, most of High School I was like a 14 or 16... I was swimmer so I was very active. I also threw the shotput, discus, etc. for track. So its not like I was immoble.
When I got to college... yeah Freshman 15 gave me a bonus and I got the Freshman 30. Not only did I stop swimming & track, I started drinking & smoking.... (Got a little rebellious here...)
I did weight watchers the summer between my Sophomore year & Junior year & lost like 30-40 lbs. I did it again btwn Jr. & Sr. year & Got down to 195. I felt great, and I was lookin' cute....
THEN... my roommate had gastro-bypass surgery. Nobody really knew wtf that was at the time. But we had Leia's last everything WITH her. Last ice cream, ziti, pizza, beer, you name it, we ingested it. My roommate & I put on like 20 lbs. Leia was a size 4 later that year when I graduated.
Shortly after college I moved in with my boyfriend. I learned how to cook & I was AWESOME. It had been a long time since he ate home cooked food every night... and I liked learning... hell, I liked the food. And we lived .5 sec from like 3 convenient stores... so nightly ice cream cravings were easily satisfied... you see where this is going....
Sometime between me learning how to cook and last year, food became something that more than ever eased stress, and preparing a elaborate meal said, I love you... well... I went back to weight watchers Jan. '05... I lost 15 lbs. I stayed fighting with that GD 15 lbs. for almost a year. During this time, my boyfriend who had also struggled as a kid & through HS , etc. lost about 80 lbs. & started doing mixed martial arts.... I was very proud, and he was inspiring, but still I felt a little left behind. Then we had to move again... and I gave up. I had gotten from 256 to 241... which quickly , very quickly after the holidays was probably up near 260-270... so higher than when I started weight watchers...
So it was my new years resolution to figure out how to keep from killing myself via food. That's when I started researching Lap Band & getting on with my road to a better me. HOWEVER... I nearly did kill myself in the beginning of 2006. I had decided to get LB & I had gone to a seminar. But what I didn't understand is that you have to lost 5% before you actually have the band. I ate WHATEVER WHENEVER and HOWEVER much of it I wanted. It was fun times. Until the day I polished off yet another Italian Combo Sub & stepped on the scale just for kicks. 295. I nearly threw up. How did I get to be almost 300 lbs.? I vowed NEVER to reach that weight again.. and I didn't. I struggled through the 280s & practically BEAT myself down to 261 right before my surgery. It was a tough road. It was June & July of this year. I had surgery in August, and I've lost 33 lbs. since surgery... and 68 altogether since the scale said 295... Everyday I try, everyday I try to remember what 295 felt like, and I try to remember to walk, and exercise not eat bad stuff.... but it sure isn't easy... And that... is where I am right now. Trying to stay on the road to a better me... and not go off on lazy ass trail ;)
